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New Blog

2005-04-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

I've got a new blog... Soooo... Please visit this http://focal-exclamation.blogspot.com/ and change your link of mine, thank you...

Happy Valentine's Day! this is shit...

2005-02-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

whatever day this is, it's still chinese new year... despite being single on this day, i still have my programs, which is bai nian!!! wahahaha!!! hong bao!!! maybe later at night, might meet some friends, probably for a movie... at least this year, valentines day for singles ain't killing them, they can still collect hong bao...

damn, can tell from my post that i'm outta topic to write about... blaa blaa blaa... whatever whatever whatever... yada yada yada... yeah, i think i'm going over to KL for shopping. if it wasn't for da vocational assessment thing, i would had left yesterday... anyone wanna join me to KL? hurry, seats are limited! please call sistic for booking! nonsense... betta stop here, or it'll get outta hand!

see you guys!!! wish all of you a prosperous new year!!! it's still chinese new year!!!

GONG XI FA CAI!!!

2005-02-11T12:46:00.000+08:00

GONG XI GONG XI GONG XI NI AH GONG XI GONG XI GONG XI NI!!! eh, peow, come over to my house and bai nian la, then got hong bao! LoL! yeah! i'm back from malaysia! had a great time there, all those ang baos, fireworks, gambling and feasting were da best! not actually that, da gathering with relatives and friends were awesome! especially this year, families of my dad's friends were there to celebrate this great festival together, uncle calvin's family, uncle kim's family, uncle francis's family, uncle ng and wife, and those who visited us on da 2nd day! hey, i wanna tell janice, justin, jasmine, zixian, xuepin, jianrong, valerie, vincent that you guys kick ass!!! woohoo!!! how bout another year again?! haha! try to make a much different arrangement yeah?! maybe we'll have a day when we do our own activities, like go to da beach and play? aight?!

those usual 2 who weren't there becoz they are in canada studying, i really miss you guys! yes, you're jennchyen and lydea! come back soon after ya studies, then we can play fireworks together again!

ok, next will be more bai nian to do, since i have yet to touch any homes in singapore... who would like to invite me first? hehe! anyway, today will be going to uncle calvin's home, then club after that... anyone wanna join in, only 18 and above please for da club...

welcome back people to my blog, sorry ah, gotta prepare and celebrate CNY, so didn't update for da past few days! haha, maybe da next few days also no time to update! yeah! you guys and gals take care yah! wish you all a prosperous new year!!! GONG XI GONG XI!!!

I'm BACK!!!

2005-02-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

damn right i'm back!!! i hadn't blogged for months, and now with a lil change, juz a lil change... anyway, to me, it's quite a lot, removed this and removed that... life has been good, with my family and friends around me, what can be better?

currently, i'm helping out at my cousin's hp shop while awaiting for enlistment... you ppl wonder why i have to wait so long? yeah, thanx to my studies, you know, da lazy me didn't work hard, so had to stay back... hehe... no more! coz i finally graduated... oh yah, if you're looking for a hp, look for me... T___T old man for bmt!

there's a letter for me to report for a vocational assignment this 15 feb at pasir ris camp... what is it actually for??? damn...

aight, had a new hair cut, bought new clothes and stuff... tidied up da house... hmmm... CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! ANG BAO ANG BAO ANG BAO!!! of coz, that's not totally about it, it's a gathering of relatives and friends that i look forward to... my, i'm so excited about it!!!

ok, shall end here... ppl who are back to visit my blog, a warm welcome to you all!!! CHEERS!!!

dedication~

2004-11-30T03:57:00.000+08:00

this song by Maroon 5 is specially dedicated to my love, Jane Lim... although our relationship had ended, which i never wanted it to happen, my heart still beats... this song has something to tell you...

p/s: coincidently, the album is "songs about jane"

together...

2004-11-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

this day i've set myself straight towards what i want in da near future... especially with you by my side, da future seems so much clearer...

Last day of SIP!~!~!

2004-10-08T10:02:00.000+08:00

boy, am i excited! this day marks da last day of my somewhat boring(most of da time it is!) attachment. hopeful to get my diploma finally! but, not after i hand in my SIP report... Zz... still hafta write a report, damn! whatever it is, i want to enjoy my last day here, especially since we are going to pizza hut for lunch later with our senior colleagues. go back home after that or back to the office to finish up my report along with su?

ok, yesterday is my birthday, and right after work, i went home, got changed, had dinner with my family, and went to meet my dar dar... had dinner of satays, sting ray, coconut drink at east coast food centre. took a stroll at da beach, then decided to go to the esplanade. yes, and we went! took many pictures with da place and da merlion! i'm so excited to see them after they got developed! walked to clarke quay, and we did something really stupid. unknowingly, we thought we need to get to clarke quay via da mrt station after we had crossed da road, so we walked down, got by da control station, climbed da 90 steps of stairs to the streets, found our way to our destination, and saw a bridge to cross. then we noticed that we can actually turn right after we had crossed da road to da bridge. we stupidly walked one big round and climbed those 90 fucking stairs... but it was a good form of exercise like what singapore is promoting now... healthy lifestyle!

i'm gonna do my report now! peace out!

i'm 22 already!

2004-10-07T09:13:00.000+08:00

it's my birthday today and i juz turned 22! yeah!~!~! *throws confetti* although da number changed, it didn't have much impact, 21 did. anyway, i'm so absolutely happy! i've received presents even before da day, a renoma wallet(i'm using it everyday), a t-shirt(times when i will wear and act cute), echo davidoff perfume(a new fragrance for dar to sniff) and a chocolate cake topped with strawberries, all from jane dar and she baked da cake! surprise surprise! when da clock striked 12 last night, she brought out da cake, while i was cluelessly watching tv at her home! LoL! she is sooooo sweet! with such a lovely girlfriend, i could sing "what a wonderful world"! *starts singing* actually, having her company without presents(at least a cake will do), i would still be happy. but still i love every single present!

i was really joyful to be greeted with birthday greetings from my 3 siblings(how sweet!), and my uncle(didn't he sleep and remembers my birthday?) from KL! all very close people to me! thank you all!

got home late last night, and as usual, an ang pow from my parents was on my desk. yeah! extra cash! LoL! thank you mum and dad!

da 2 of us will be having dinner somewhere this evening. i'm so looking forward to it!

dar dar, i deeply appreciate all the things you did for me, from da bottom of my heart, thank you so much!

in da wee hours...

2004-10-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

recalling da conversation we(dar and i) had last night, which we rarely have this kinda opportunity, we actually touched on certain topics that we hardly ever talked about. some amusing and amazing events that i would question about. remember her asked me, "why were you always around whenever i fall out of a relationship? moreover, it's when we seldom contact." then i thought for awhile. indeed, i'm usually there when it happened, and i don't make myself appear, i'm juz like *snaps da finger* i'm there. we thought maybe when it's time for me to be there, i'll be there. yeap, that's one part of our long conversation over at her home till 0300hrs. more stuff were discussed, and some were memories of our school life, asking each other why did these happen and these no happen... ha! and she also asked, what if we were already together back then, we'll still be together right now, which we would have been together much longer. well, juz as what i thought of, but it's something we couldn't make out how. not important as i said, we love each other and are in this relationship, we shall see what's in stall for us in our future. mmmm... yes, da present we shall cherish and da future we shall look forward to...

anyway, right after work yesterday, went to meet dar and then to meet my friend, siou fang to pass me some cans of coca cola that she had help me collect from different countries. thank you so much! i like this levi's coca cola can, can't remember where is it from... then had mos burger for dinner, after which, fang went to meet her friends, while my darling and i went shopping. she bought a dress and 2 tops, me bought nothing... we actually forgot we left our things with micky, then she had to bring our stuff to us, sorry that we forgot, and thank you for bringing our stuff to us... talked for awhile, then we made our way home to catch "america's next top model"...

as for today, it is dar's last day at isetan scotts. gonna pick her up after work later. she'll be in bugis from da day after, in a much casual wear for her uniform. hopefully she'll feel more comfortable in it.

it's a wrap. peace out.

weekends' activities!

2004-10-04T09:25:00.000+08:00

having breakfast while i compose this entry... california raisin loaf and coffee... i really love da taste of raisins, and da feeling of having them in my mouth... gives me da omph!

received my first birthday present from my darling days before my birthday! she's too keen to present it to me, so i got it as soon as i met her hours after she bought it! i really love it! it's so beautiful and cool, everyone will agree! something that i can use if everyday, and of coz remind me of her whenever i have it around... teehee... ok, i'm thinking of her right now! actually, most of da time i do...

you guys know da movie "white chicks"? i'm sure you do! go catch it, one of da best must-watch comedy out there... i believe that even when you're sleepy and tired, it'll still keep you awake and laughing, like you couldn't miss a single part of it! right dar?!

was at ada's birthday party! her birthday is exactly tomorrow, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADA again! LoL! she greeted me back for my birthday is nearing as well, when i said that to her at her party. really like da suite there, and da price is good!

missed out sunday's macdonald's breakfast, becoz my sleepyhead, piggy, i-wanna-sleep-longer, sweet lil dar dar couldn't get enough sleep! LoL! so we forgo da breakfast... it's not totally bout da food that i miss, it's bout da sunny morning, having one of our favourite breakfast together, which we hardly do... yeah! i like da feeling of it!

didn't have breakfast, at least we had lunch together at scotts shopping centre food court. beef curry set, inclusive of mushroom tom yam soup, veggies and rice... delicious! window shopped for awhile... i was wary that i wasn't in a very good mood, it should be something deep down, which i dunno what is it that made me feel somewhat uneased... i was guilty of affecting my darling into it... well, it was only short, got into good mood again...

while waiting for my mummy to pick me up, sitting alone at macdonald's, some guys approached me to ask for some chairs for their table next to mine... and know what! one of them is my primary schoolmate! he still remembers my name, but his name slipped off mine! he told me how he actually remembers mine, it's so funny! remembering that my chinese spelling was so awful that my father tore my book when he saw it, as da results were da most disgusting thing to see! LoL! thanks ar xing rong for bringing back those memories to me! anyway, we exchanged contacts, so i can still get him out to share more of our primary school stuff!

met my mummy, then went to meet my uncles and aunties... at around 2050hrs, i left to pick darling up from work... da train ride is da time when we usually laugh and giggle a lot, and even do and say funny and stupid stuff! LoL! i dunno why, we juz have da mood to do so! i think we are being seen as a crazy couple on board train rides...

that's bout it! needa get back to my assignments! what's for lunch? i can't wait!!!

peace out!

cappuccino-caramel popcorn!

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!

2004-10-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!~!~! YEAH!~!~! *throws confetti* i still remember how we celebrated it in primary school when we received lotsa candies and chocolates form our teachers. even played games in school as well! then da next day will be a holiday for us and our parents will bring us out to play like today, juz look at how da mall is so filled with kids, you can hear them everywhere... i'm no more celebrating it, i'm already old enough to bring my kids out, till i have mine of coz.

today is also da return for da chickens and eggs! yeah! they're back! i'm craving for chicken rice and i'll make it my dinner tonight! i think many singaporeans or singapore inhabitants are as well! so let's tuck those chickens in!

one more thing, my cousin, yogi and ant are going to tekong today... guess ant and yogi are already there, seng will be at 3pm! so wish them da best of luck! take care guys!

till now, today has been a pretty nice day! met dar dar for lunch, then wanted to get tix for white chicks at midnight. but, da queue was long, so we intend to get da tixs online...

back in the office, still there are some more stuff for me to finish up... Zz... things for eRepository keeps coming in, i really hate those morons who can make up their mind on how they want us to do it...

recalling da conversation we had in starbucks during da small ffu gathering last night. peow was hilarious with da ghost topic... think i will not fear it, instead laugh if i happen to see one now! LoL!

that's bout it, gotta get back to sleep, erm, i meant work! Zz... boring boring! another 5 more working days, including da last day when we'll be having pizza hut with da CIS staff!

glad that it happened...

2004-09-29T08:30:00.000+08:00

in the evening yesterday, jane and i had a great time in da comfort of my room. it's been quite some time when we could have a few hours spent together all by ourselves... really. then it was time when i spoke to my heart content. yes, it wasn't easy after so long, becoz hardly there was a place, a time or da right mood/ambience when i could let myself open up. initially, don't expect it to be all juz any unconventional talk, somehow here and there, are some disagreement... well, at least after that part, i had realized some of da things that i could not understand at first, and a chance to actually let out what i almost got suffocated to death... although there are more to talk about amongst us and we didn't finish, i am so glad that it happened... for the other things to discuss about, i really do hope we can have this kinda of time again.

p/s: to friends who waited for her last night, sorry to have let you gals waited...

dar, hope you remember that we are more than juz a couple. i still need you to play different roles, and you know what they are... i'm so happy that you did and you will continue to do it right? i really appreciate it, thank you dar... i love you...

unsuccessful...

2004-09-28T08:47:00.000+08:00

it's mooncake festival! there'll be a beautiful, nice, round and bright moon tonight! haven't really celebrated this occassion before, i dunno how to... do we like sit at da pavillion with lanterns all around, having tea, moon-seeing, with numerous poem sharing and riddles solving? LoL! so ancient... maybe we can dress up like them and do it! *siao li bo ho seh!*

today is da 7th day of coming to work early. yes, i am not gonna be late again!it's either i get to da place early or right on time... sure made some improvements on time management and i'm so determined to push it all da way! applause for me?

it's a happy occasion as we celebrated grandpa's birthday last night at my dad's friend's restaurant at punggol... ate alot, played with da kids, talked to the adults and discussed some issues... at the end of it, i was given to drive home! yippie!!!

but there is a twist to my mood, becoz i'm an unsuccessful candidate for pilot, and it saddens me... i'm probably not RSAF pilot material... well, i fucked up some part of da CPSS test... darn!!! oh well, i'll try out for commercial pilot...

ok, today will be a good day, becoz my dar dar is off! i so wanna see her later! so dar, see you later aight?! don't abandon me...

brain wrecked!

2004-09-21T17:44:00.000+08:00

well, i'm back in the office, and i dunno why do i have to come back for like 1 and a half hour. moreover to slack here... pretty much redundant! oh well, i'm tired, firstly from waking up at 0500hrs and from the CPSS test this morning... the 5 hours test really took a great deal out of me. i'm so exhausted right now. not juz physically drained, i'm very mentally drained as well... questions for da test were really tough, right from da beginning... i would say, it takes a brainiac with quick response, great understanding power and high IQ to pass that test, plus good co-ordination with their limbs and mind. see, there were hundreds of brain teasing questions, which you have to really understand what they are... the eyes, hands and legs co-ordination part was pretty smooth for me... there was this part which you are tested on ya ability to understand and follow instruction, which i can only say that you gotta be calm and really steady work those situation out... well, i'm praying that i can pass. please pray for me as well... thank you! after the test, i went down to town to meet up honey sweet darling for lunch, had subway melt, then took a walk in da supermarket, before i came back to the office... yeah... freaking waste of time to come back to the office... Zz... i'm outta here... peace out!

wish me luck!

2004-09-20T10:13:00.000+08:00

this morning, while preparing to go to work, i was looking at my desk, which now feels that it doesn't look like mine... becoz it has been a long time since it was so neat. yeah, da long time ago was when da desk juz came... i wanna thank my dar dar for making that area so neat and clean on saturday! thank you sweetie! i have more space on my desk now! i'll try to keep it that way... hehe...

my cousin, jeff juz went back to his hometown on saturday, after we went swimming and jane's home for pasta, courtesy of jane's cooking of coz! yeap, i sent him to changi point, where he boarded da boat... after which, i went to da bao some western food at my uncle's stall to let dar try his great skills(for those who also wanna try, please proceed to changi village hawker centre, fork and knife western food stall). went home and waited for her, which seemed like a long wait at that point of time... anyway, first dish she tried was chicken chop! after that, headed for desmond's birthday at downtown east, where he held his chalet n bbq. at the end of it, went to dar's home n i fell asleep on her bed till 0245hrs, before heading home to my own sack...

da next day, woke up at 1230hrs, had lunch and slacked at home... took a shower and went down to town to have lunch with my baby on her 2 hours break... window shopped around till her break time was up... then i went to meet my mummy and went to bedok, where my cousin lives. played with da stupid dog for awhile... yeah, dumb dog that sometimes bark at da wrong time while i was playing with it... went back to orchard to meet up with dar and sent her home... and while walking back from tampines central to her home, saw ffu at coffee bean... went over to say hi to them, i was so excited that i accidentally left dar behind me. i'm so sorry dar, becoz i was so overwhelmed! but she still walk up and offered her cappucino caramel pop-corn to them... she's da sweetest! fortunately, i still had my bag of ba guas in hand... so we went to her home and finished them up! muahahaha! BA GUA!

after that laugh, i suddenly thought of one funny thing that dar told me last night. it's about her sistaz group thing, given this group a name "HAHAHAHA"... to which was formed with da first letter of their names, and here goes: Huiling, Ann, Huiwen, Ah-jane, Huiying, Amelia, He (micky's last character in her name pronounced as Heh), Ah-kok... yeah, thanx to dar who came out with this... i was apparently stunned... LoL!

that's bout it!

yeah! wish me luck aight?! hopefully to pass my CPSS tmr!

a big hug and a big kiss for you and for da surprise reminder at 1333hrs yesterday! i love you!

basketball~!

2004-09-18T08:50:00.000+08:00

wow, it's been a long time since i touched basketball... yesterday, i suddenly had the urge to shoot some hoops, and juz nice that my cousin is in town, along with my youngest brother, we went to play some balls... i felt great to work out my old bones and muscles!

caught "The Terminal" and it's a great show! good job there Tom! referring to Tom Hanks! wonderfully hilarious film! Must watch i would say! but not for da young ones, becoz they will end up sleeping like my lil brother did... haha!

sunny days!

2004-09-15T09:29:00.000+08:00

it's a wednesday, and issues of 8days are released weekly today... we juz bought cleo last night, this month's issue is a very good read, so gals go and get it, and guys too!

for da past 72 hours, i only had like 14 hours of sleep, which is accountable to sleeping less than 1/3 of 3 da days... i need like another 10 hours more to replace da loss... but, i'm not bothered, as long as my days are great! yeap, getting up from da right side of bed and having a good time for da rest of da day!

did i mention bout constantly visiting mcdonald's? yeap, we or sometimes i had been doing that... not all da time consuming food there, but usually asking them bout da toys they are offering that day... reason: they are offering some hello kitty toys for a happy meal purchased... so you now know what is it about? LoL! yeah, now she has 3 of da 4 toys available in her hand now...

what's da plan for tonight? jeff's going to zouk with gareth and his sis tonight, i'm not going, coz i needa work da next day, sooo you guys enjoy ya time there aight?! i prefer accompanying my sweet lil baby... doing betta things like mask, reading magazines together, discussing bout stuff, whispering sweet nothing into each other's ear, cuddling and... hey hey hey, stop, stop! why am i telling all this stuff here? doesn't it give you da hair-stand? LoL!

i'm very glad that people around me are ok, even though some may have problems, they still stand strong and try to fight against it... all people, take care! peace!

i'm done, peace out!

long talk with jeff

2004-09-13T09:01:00.001+08:00

still i managed to get up at 0745hrs and got to work, even though i slept at 0530hrs this morning... actually, i had a long chat with my cousin, jeff... being cooped up in kl with no one whom he can really pour his feelings and words to for so long, i lent my listening ears, as well as shared my part of whatever i wanna say... at the end of da session, he felt great! i'm glad he did, coz that's da least a brother could do, since we don't meet very often right?

having such a sensible and thoughtful(he does know what to pick up from me... LoL!)
cousin, i'm really happy... having been bothered by his parents to reunite with his gf, he still stand his ground and kept da reason for da break-up from them, to at least save a good impression for his ex... many parents thought that we children only want money, when what really matter most is their love and care, do they know? how do we go about opening up to them? oh well, hope they will soon notice it before it's too late..

WARNING! about those tiles in tampines swimming complex, do be cautious when you walk in da pool, coz i got a 3cm cut on my toe while having a swim there on saturday...

after swimming that saturday, we went to pick up some ingredients for our dinner and some toiletries, and back to dar's home for her to change before heading to my place... over at my place, took a nap then got up to cook up our own creation of pasta with shitake mushrooms(mmmmmmm...), prawns(weeee...), bacon(oooooo...) and linguine... named it "dar's mushroom pasta" YUMMY! watched some tv and arranged some photos for our own couple albums... of coz i sent her home after that...

sunday, as mentioned above, my cousin arrived in singapore... and right after he reached my home, with his friend gareth, we went to meet up joan and made our way to orchard to meet up with my impish, sweet lil gf... so we had bk for lunch... walked around town, had a few bites here and there... then picked up jane after work, then meet up with my youngest brother, kuanjie, and headed home...

that's bout it...

whatever may come for you, i'm here to share your woes...

until the end of time...

2004-09-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

woke up at da time when i'm supposed to reach my workplace for da second time this week... dar was supposed to give me a wake up call, but she missed it... LoL! it's alright dar, it's my fault that i can't get up myself... yeap, she thought i would curse and scold her, but nope, i didn't and that thought didn't even run through my mind, coz i was busy getting myself ready... probably i'm so well trained in staying calm, coz when you get frustrated, you tend to miss out certain things and it's a waste of time...

"how long will you love me?" when i was asked this question, i answered "forever"... yes, forever it will be, becoz i want to, and i will... i asked, "will you promise not to leave me?" ,and "but i will die one day" was her reply... i believe that she meant that she won't leave me until the end of her days... WeeEEeeEEee!

while we're ending our conversation over da phone last night, she said, "dar, i want to sleep beside you" and i was like awwwww... me too... we'll have our chance alright... my sweet lil girl...

aight, enough of da little bit of our sweet whispers... LoL!

went to pick her up from work on wednesday night, and we had happy meal at wisma mac becoz she wanted da hello kitty toys they are offering... erm... happy meal? have it and you'll be happy! especially if you like hello kitty!

da next day, met dar for dinner after my work, and we had subway melt for dinner at shaw house... then she went back to work, while i went straight to kinokuniya to search for some books for pilots... well, da cheapest book (not informative enough) costs 30 bucks... and da book that i want cost around 178 bucks... i need some to read up for some knowledge... nvm, i'll soon get them... then continued to browse some other books like da mini cooper book that showed their different models from da past to da present, simply awesome! then checked out some body building books, LoL! gotta solidify some parts of my body a little! yeah, coz they seem to be liquidifying! muahahaha!!! at 2140hrs, dar finished work, we met and then proceeded to bugis and waited for ada, shirley and joanna, and we headed home...

i wanna get some tan at sentosa on sat! needa trim my body a little yeah... that's all for this entry, peace out!

Open Water? Fuckin wasta money...

2004-09-08T09:44:00.001+08:00

did i juz mention open water? nothing worth anymore mentioning since IT'S A FUCKED UP SHOW! yeap, i'm starting to appreciate many films out there... so guys n gals, if you've yet to catch open water, PLEASE DON'T CATCH IT! i've regretted catching it right...

gotta clear my assignment today, then i can relax for da next few days!!! i've been relaxing too much though... *yawns* back to work... Zz...

i'm so happy!

2004-09-06T10:53:00.000+08:00

some squabbles lately, yet with lotsa cuddles n kisses... yeap, i'm so happy becoz of something from dar last night... something i had been anticipating for, which is that she made things clear, very clear to that person.

for i seek peace n serenity in our relationship, without da many times disturbing behaviour of another person. things that he do are simply intolerable, which every boyfriends out there will unargueably agree! now that's some peace on my mind for me, i'm feeling more comfortable... great days ahead that will be so enjoyable!

hate to say this but i think it's been on my mind for quite sometimes, and i think it's time to let it out now:
"for those who many a time try to do anything to interupt my peace and happiness are unforgiven, and when situation becomes intolerable anymore, actions will be taken. withholding my defences, trying not to engage in war, until it's only fair that i protect and fight for my future from the invasion, rather than to see it being damaged n destroyed. enraged as i'll be, i shan't assume what i'll do, but if i were to do anything yet, and something happens, it should be retribution"

seriously, i've never distaste any commoners, except for certain criminals for they had their wrong doings. but from my second and third paragraph, you guys probably can tell how much i despise certain kinda people. yeap, in my black list now... sigh, why get to da bottom of my little book, in da "untouchable" section... people out there who knows who you are and if any of ya friends are like that, please, please let them know that they should stop those unacceptable behaviour and tell them how much they are being loathed...

wow! so much for not posting regularly, i still have more to add on... this time, are recent activities and happenings...

met dar during her dinner break, which i had planned to have dinner at da turkish restaurant in far east, but wasn't a bit hungry, especially only after asking one simple question so many times then i got the answer... well, didn't let it spoil my mood though, still we snacked and chatted till her break ended... so i went to look for serene jie and yunfang at heeren. and yunfang got a tattoo of a fairy! splendid! then at around 2140hrs, we picked up dar after her work, then had a drink at "cosi" before we headed home.

caught "ANACONDA, the hunt for the blood orchid" on thursday... quite an interesting thriller, and if you have interest in weird outta this world creatures, probably it's a good catch...

then on friday, had dinner with dar and waited for her to knock off, then headed to her home, where we rested and i slacked till like 4am plus before heading home...

saturday was a real slack at my home. it was depressing that day when dar said,"i'm all prepared to quarrel with you!" aight, i was tongue-tied and very upset upon hearing that, who won't? but that night ended pretty nicely as i left her home at around 3am...

so on sunday, i was in a very good mood, and i got changed and lunched with dar at wheellock's sakae sushi, on my house that is! great lunch time spent together! so i shopped around at far east after i sent her back to work, before meeting her again for her next break. saw this pair of import nike dunk in reflective pink fabric, $229. thickly cushioned, nice! then to heeren for some tracks, where i found my nelly is out with his new single! ok, back to meet dar for her next break, and we went to walk around at far east. brought her to check out da pair of shoes at "left foot", and saw another pair which she prefers, a high cut nike pink, erm... which version? hmmm... nvm... then had yakitori, and sent her back to work again... so i left for home to change and along with my brother, nic, we headed down to meet mummy for dinner... after dinner, went to bedok blk 85 to get 10 bbq chicken wings for dar. yeap, ate them at her home, then slacked till nearly 2am and i went home to have my third shower of da day before i slept...

please do not argue or question over blog entries or whatsoever, since it's clearly written aight? if you dun like what i had composed in here, let me know... i love you dar...

peace out!

My Place by Nelly, feat. Jaheim

2004-09-06T10:15:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah! my fav artist is out with a new single... i've yet to come upon his new album, maybe it's not out yet? anyway, this new single features this new hit that i listened to at hmw yesterday, namely "My Place", enjoy ma homeys! peace out!

Title: My Place
Artist: Nelly feat. Jaheim

I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want u with no other man
Why can't u understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world but you just wanted arguing
From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped u off again
Even flipped out on me at the mall again
"it's all his fault again" that's what u telling all ya friends
I aint pointing fingers ma, I just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got a little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do it better for ya, cause

[Bridge]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

[Chorus]
Won't you come on and go with me
Come on ova to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
And let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way

I heard your friend told a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this aint the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I aint got no issue's with hitting at another time
We never had a problem gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma but the sex wasn't one
Now check it I know u get excited (still) when I come round and bite it (girl)
Quit frowin up and quit actin like you don't like

I like it, I like it, I really, really like it, I want it, adore it, so come let me enjoy it

[Bridge]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

[Chorus]
Won't you come on and go with me
Come on ova to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
And let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way

Shawty where u been
Feels like a long time, long, long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, when I know I said some f*cked up things to u before
But girl u know I didn't mean it
(I didn't mean one single word)
(I never meant one single word)
If I could take back every word I would and more fo sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convenient for me

[Bridge]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

[Chorus]
Won't you come on and go with me
Come on ova to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
And let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way

planning on a getaway! and something else...

2004-08-31T08:50:00.000+08:00

sheesh... i won't be meeting her tonight, i guess? oh well...

yesterday was her first day at work, or should i say training... as per norm, her feet n legs hurt after long hours of standing... hope my simple massage made them feel betta... for da next 3 months, she will not be able to take leaves, which mean until 30th november then we can go on a holiday... alright, we shall then fly away in december... *prays that my enlistment won't come so soon* LoL!

where shall we go then? some beach resorts or cities? we shall discuss bout it... yippie!!!

as dar was playing wit da plush toy dog that serene jie gave it to her, she looked at me wit her sweet doll eyes and told me that she misses pinku and wants a puppy... so we were talking bout getting a dog, and i suggested, "we should have a home first..." , but dar said, "shouldn't we get engaged first, then apply for flat, when da flat is ready, we get married and move in right away?" and i went, "huh? yah yah yah!!!" LoL! of coz that will be a few years later lah.

albeit da failures and barriers i will be facing, i charge on to fulfilling my goals!

reminder!!!

2004-08-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

CPSS on 21st sept 2004 @ 0800hrs.

everything is gonna be alright!

2004-08-27T09:21:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! i'm free from 12noon to 3pm, becoz of ccn day!!! but what can i do during da free time?! darn... heavyheaded... *scamble to one corner

sometimes i only hope that i can find a reason not to see you... you have many not to see me, you may... i'll juz be somewhere unseen...

my feelings and personal opinion...

2004-08-26T10:15:00.000+08:00

*sigh* didn't really have a good night sleep, so i'm not da best of me today... probably due to pondering over some matters... however, i can't do it by myself...

it's da time of da month when one has to be in pain n those mood swings n frustrations becomes uncontrollable... not me for sure... seeing her in pain really hurts me so much that i got agitated myself for not being able to prevent what she is going through or at least ease da pain... anyone has any idea how?

honestly, i'm very afraid of losing my love one, for whatever situations or circumstances there exists... having her company all da time doesn't seem to be da best solution... moreover, with da emotional scar inside me, almost removed, i need a bit more reassurance... i do believe you n there's nothing i'm suspicious bout, i juz need sometime... n i do agree to that topic bout having our own time, and i've been reading bout it almost everywhere... da hints you gave were all so obvious i did notice them... yet, didn't do anything bout it, but i'm trying n sorting things out... gimme a lil more time aight?

hope you understand n not make any assumptions...

i'm sorry for my negligence n not being of much help to ease ya pain... i'll do my best for us... i love you darling...

to first accomplish something smaller...

2004-08-25T09:20:00.000+08:00

ok, after looking over n over my blog, i realised that some dream n desire of mine seems pretty far from now, so i shall put it in some other section to remind me that i still need to work them out, and i've decided to have it in this entry...

here goes...

da "my dream & desire" list will be "my goals & ambition"...

my dreams & desire n some wonderful pics...

2004-08-24T11:28:00.000+08:00

da whole morning i was searching for pictures, pictures of my dream & desire... here are some splendid pictures i would like to share!

a house on a beautiful beach

this is like a palace, high on top of a hill with ocean view

isn't this a beauty?

yeap! aren't they great?! da ones on my dream & desire list are what i really want... gonna take some time to actually fulfil them...

a trip to sg.rengit with dar, her sis and my mummy...

2004-08-23T08:45:00.000+08:00

it's a really happy monday, becoz i really had a great weekend! although it was quite tiring, it's all very much worth it! our weekends had been very very active if you guys really noticed...

since saturday, we were at this gathering, the ins or should i say tutorial group M31A gathering at a dim sum restaurant name "Teahouse", becoz there were more M31A people and they were da one who organised it... after high tea, dar and i, along with carol, adeline, shirley and wenlong went to john little's sale at da singapore expo... it was huge and patrons were plenty... da things there were pretty cheap, especially da lingeries and you could see women swarm that area, erm... and many other sections too...

after spending 30+ dollars shopping, we seperated at da carpark... adeline, dar and i took da bus to my home, which adeline stays near my area... at home, played and chatted with my siblings, then i showered and changed and got my stuff ready to go over and stay at dar's place for a night... becoz we had to wake up pretty early like 0630hrs and get ourselves ready to reach da ferry terminal at 0730hrs...

sunday morning, woke up at 0630hrs, then eventually we got ready at 0715hrs... took a cab down to da ferry terminal to meet up with my mummy... we boarded da ferry at 0800hrs then it took us straigh to sebana cove resort, where i had arranged for my cousin, jeff to pick us up and bring us to da town... had laksa and prawn chee cheong fun... paid a visit to my granny at her house, then to my second aunt's place to have my hair trimmed and they played with da lil pup with this cute curly fur, and dar named da puppy "pinku"! hmmm...da name didn't really associate with da look of da pup... well as long as dar likes it, and da name is cute, da name went well with da puppy... haha! in desperation get a puppy! so adorable! yeap, gonna get a few when we have our own house! we love dogs!

as usual, we had our lunch at "Jade Garden Seafood Restaurant" owned by my second aunt's family on my mummy's treat... da meal cost her a whopping RM539 and i think it's really cheap... from da food we had like lobsters, black pepper crab, chilli crab, big fish and 4 other yummy dishes, it's so much worth it for 10 people... calculated it to be S$20++ per head! after lunch, while joan was having her hair cut, we drove to my dad's piece of land to take a look... then went back to pick her up to go to da beach... we drove pass batu layar, which is a really beautiful beach with long shore and clean blue water, and you can see a very long line that seperates da sea and da sky with no land seen beyond da horizon... then at desaru beach was where we really had fun playing with da sand and da waves... took most of our photos there yah! picked up some sea shells, stones and dead corals... got really wet and ended up having to sit on cardboards and newspaper in da car on our way back to town...

back in town, went straight to granny's place, where mummy was there waiting for us... before heading to da ferry terminal at sebana cove resort, we went to buy some delicacies to bring back to singapore... took da ferry back and home we went... everyone was exhausted and sleepy...

at dar's place, i went to shower while she fried vermicili for us... really yummy dar! slacked around till 0100hrs then i went home to sleep...

really great weekend right? we will go there again, maybe next month! this time, we're gonna bring some clothes and towel, or maybe book a room to overnight there, although we dun have to, as we can put up at my aunt's house... a fun day at da beach and sungei rengit!

dar, how many full weekends do we have left till then when you get a no-weekend job? really love da weekends we had spent together!

the stepford wives

2004-08-20T09:33:00.000+08:00

bad start for a day... first, it was diarrhea, then came da entry i juz composed gone due to some website having no response... Zz... feeling betta from da diarrhea, but not any betta having to retype da whole new entry...

anyway, really had a good night sleep last night with a new pillow! thick and high and comfortable! some new stuffs at home too, and some stuffs were also removed to accomodate da new ones...

saw serene jie and her hubby cedrick @ tampines mall before we went to da cinema, as they were there to catch "The Village"... caught "The Stepford Wives" as mentioned in da previous entry, with dar, val, micky, yiling and weide... some parts of da show were funny, and of coz we learnt something from it... which is to find a wife who can manage all da domestic work, especially to wash da dishes? =X LoL! juz kidding! well, i would say juz watch it when you've got free time... not a must watch...

i love you for who you are and there is nothing about you that i wanna change

dar's mummy's birthday!!!

2004-08-19T14:54:00.001+08:00

bright sunny day! dar's working @ supercuts today... juz gave me a call and told me that we're gonna catch another movie tonight! should be "The Stepford Wives"! kinda curious bout da show coz its genre is Drama/Horror... hope it will be a great show! no doubt bout watching with dar n great company of friends including, yiling, val and micky!

right after work yesterday, i headed down to tampines mall to meet up with dar to get her mum's birthday present and cake... checked out some bags, some shoes and we ended up buying da whole set of bedsheet, with pillow cases, quilt cover and a quilt... yeah, a big bulk to bring around... for da cake, we got a tiramisu! fortunately, we have her brother to pick us up in his modified toyota vios... free and easy ride home for us!

reached her home and WOW! chilli crab for dinner!!! amazingly surprised and shocked we were, as when we were doing da shopping, dar mentioned bout having crabs, coz it had been so long since her family had crabs! and i also suggested bout getting da whole family down to ang mo kio!!! anyway YUMMY!!! whole family ate to our fill!!!

we then slacked for awhile before singing da birthday song and cutting da cake... da whole day ended with doing mask! yeap! felt great!

you're so right dar! i'm fidgeting with da pc, reading da magazine and missing you... juz like what you said to me over da phone! LoL!

happy birthday to darling's mummy!

2004-08-18T15:03:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to darling's mummy!

the notebook

2004-08-18T11:15:00.000+08:00

was juz on da line with da most beautiful thing in me life, as she was considering whether to go for da interview... how sweet were her thoughts of not being able to spend enough time with me if she ever starts taking up those shifts... many of those weekends will soon be gone and only weekdays' evenings when we get to cuddle... " go for it my darling, i'll go look for you wherever you may be, for i know that this is only temporary..." good luck!

time flies and only did i notice it juz now when ms doreen ho came in for a short debrief on da things we had done for da past 8 weeks on this 9th week... recounting a few days after i started on this attachment, was when da 2 of us started this enchanting journey... it goes on and on and on...

my love for dar is of noah's love for allie in "the notebook". (ahem, kinda raised some goosebumps for you guys...) yes, da show we caught last night... though not fairy tale like, da touching story do make people tear... lovely plot i would say, which moved me from time to time throughout da show... for those who are really expecting romance plot, watch it!

notice da quote on da top of da poster? was talking bout it that time, and yiling's quote goes "BEHIND YILING'S GREAT LOVE IS A GREAT COMEDY". :D

can't wait to have lunch @ dar's place!

my cute, sweet lil dar dar

2004-08-17T09:43:00.000+08:00

as promised, i left out da part when dar went into da quilt cover to put da quilt in place in my previous entry! LoL! =X...

lotsa silly things she did... some were kept in discreet... such a cute little kiddo!

ikea n a happening weekend

2004-08-16T09:00:00.000+08:00

yet another start of a week... hope it'll start off well! although today is a monday, i dun think we'll be doing mask, coz we're gonna catch "ella enchanted", after dar had her hair done... hey, she's gonna go from curly wirly to flattering straight! excited! she'll look absolutely gorgeous! well, she'll look good in whatever hairdo... ok, back to da movie, which i ain't know anything much bout da movie, but it looks really interesting, especially with da combination of a few fairy tales... and da movie is an addition to a really great weekend, including last friday!

right after work last friday, we headed down to ikea impromptu... but before we got went to ikea, we stepped into queesway shopping centre first, where dar got some great pairs of factory price earrings! took our time picking out some really pretty ones... then before we left for ikea, we shared 3 tea eggs. yummy! those were to keep us slightly filled for a moment as we intended to have dinner at ikea restaurant...

at ikea, we walked around da maze-like furniture store, then headed straight to da restaurant... food layed on our table:

- fish with chips
- meatballs with potatoes
- 2 pieces of chicken wings
- orange juice
- mug root beer

bought some photo frames, clippers and dar's quilt and quilt cover... yeah! dar got a new blanket!!! really comfy!

happy birthday to yiling! saturday was da celebration of yiling's birthday @ pasir ris downtown east, blk h, room 1829, with bbq pit h-29... went to help out with some moving of stuff, but yet to see her around... host not around? yeap, busy with many things... LoL! as we walked around, we noticed some familiar faces, and there's also liyan celebrating her birthday! happy birthday to liyan! it was like a gathering of ex-springfielders! ex-springfielders aplenty!

after da celebration was over, went to sleep overnight @ avis home, due to the invasion of some mahjong playas...

sunday morning, went back to da chalet. ended up only saw weide and amelia in da room da next day... no one played mahjong... well, got changed and went for our springfield track & field gathering, with special guest, mdm siti! too bad my 4 by 100m guys were busy, so didn't getta see them there... in da small gathering, still we did some catching up! really great to see all da familiar faces of yesteryear... gotta make another gathering, a big one, which hopefully everyone will make it... let's do it dar!

supposed to go swimming after da gathering, but it rained... so swimming was cancelled... dar and i walked around downtown east, coz it was raining heavily that we thought we'll have difficulty heading back to da room... bought some delicacies, went back to da room, watched encore telecast of national day parade, napped for awhile before dar's eldest bro came to pick us up for dinner at her home... steamboat!!! how honoured for they prepared it to welcome my cousin, jeff... deeply appreciate it!

hung around dar's place after dinner, talked bout cars and stuff before her brother sent us home... when we reached my place, he even let us tried his driver seat of sparco seat and momo steering wheels... really tight in there for my shoulders, great firm hold to prevent da body from swirling around...

hmmm... think before i get a luxury car, i shall get a modified sports car first... LoL! maybe only... but of coz, if it's possible, i'll get a mini cooper instead, coz dar loves it...

time to getta work! i'm outta here...

great weekend dar! never had consecutive weekends fully filled with activities before! woohoo!!!

before my dream is fulfilled

2004-08-13T09:47:00.000+08:00

early morning, aching right shoulder... how much comfort can you get when you can feel da pricking with even da slightest lift of da shoulder... what a great start of da day... Zz... thankfully, dar kicked up my day well!

i've been troubled, troubled by being dependant on my parents for a near 22 years, still receiving allowances and being paid for my education... can you imagine asking for a mere 10 bucks for ya transport allowance for the occasional ez-link card top-up from ya parents, and they question da amount of usage, saying that you're over using? like how to over use public transport? yeap, it happened this morning, and i dun like it! darn! when is da concession gonna be ready? on the average, singaporean guys do 13 years of education, whilst i'm doing like 2 and a half years more than da usual before enlisting into NS... i'm juz seriously making too many mistakes in my education life that kept me at such level! i'm not stupid, i'm juz not hardworking enough... plain laziness to revise for exams, and get assignments and projects done... always in a rush... i'm like asking myself everyday, "WTF am i doing?" inferiority sets in... moreover, choosing institutions and courses blindly... i'm doing this stupid course that i totally have no interest in, juz getting a diploma for da sake of getting a diploma... and now doing boring sip in an office environment... how insensible to heed those adults' advices that time, whether to quit da course and go for design... though i still need at least a diploma to qualify for my dream career, i didn't want it to be something that is dragging me for so long! wish i could juz reset everything, but with memories of mistakes made intact, so as not to repeat them... even thoughts of death were there too, like when i'm alone, crossing da road sometimes, i dun bother to check... i'm fortunate enough to have survived those multiple trials... i'm thankful of that, for i can still think of consequences, not wanting to leave this world juz like that...

oh well, this part of me is so totally unsatisfying! could say that it's da worst part of me... i'm desperately in need of my dream to be fulfilled to cover up that worst part of me... i dun compare with da worse, for i can tell that i'm one of da worst... f*ck it!

felt great dumping those stuff out, still there are somemore inside, which i dunno where to let out... *tries to puke them out! no way... apologies for da entry above... juz before cutting out that career, i would like to work on those ideas we(some friends and i) came out wit... some picking up to do... peace out!

sorry dad, i've been such a burden for all these years...

dar, i'm thinking of you... i understand ^_^

for those good times, i yearn for you to be there. but if when i'm in those bad times, will you struggle through them wit me?

battle of da good n da evil

2004-08-12T09:26:00.000+08:00

why allow sadness and sorrow fill into the empty bottle when joy and happiness can be in it?

every sweet memories of yesterday and hopeful expectations of the future begins with now...

a sweet love story

2004-08-11T09:39:00.000+08:00

An email from my friend with this story, which i have yet to delete. This is one story that can make one tear...

A Sweet Love Story

From the very beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy, saying that it has got to do with family background, and that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrelled very often. Though the girl loved the guy deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused the girl to be very upset. With that and the family's pressure, the gal often vents her anger on him. As for him... he only endured it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated and decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the gal: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?" The girl agreed, and with the guy's determination the family finally gave in and agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they got engaged.

The gal went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails and phone calls. Though it was hard, but both never thought of giving up. One day, while the gal was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum cry, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. she had lost her voice...

The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in the hospital, besides silent cry... it's still just silent cry that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone which pierced into her heart every time it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know and, not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent countless replies and phone calls.. all the gal could do besides crying is still crying... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything and be happy. With a new environment, the gal learnt sign language and started a new life.

Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came and told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed and her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The gal was shattered! When she opened the letter, she saw her name on it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what was going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her...

He used sign language to tell her, "I've spent a year to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You." With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The gal finally smiled...

* Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to give.
* Treat every moment as if it's the last day, then you'll know how to treasure.
* Treasure what you have right now, or else you may regret one day...

kl trip wit dar, her da sao n joan

2004-08-10T09:10:00.000+08:00

i'm back at work again after a short trip to kl during da long weekend... pretty tiresome and unsafe to travel without advance booking... every part of da trip resulted in my darling getting over-exhausted... so yesterday was really a much needed rest day for all of us... slept during da journey back, slept when we got back home in da morning, slept when we got back to my home... sleep sleep sleep... Zz...

as we were on our way there and back, there were lessons learnt:

1. Check date and plan trip early
2. Decide early, at least 2 weeks before
3. if there's gonna be a public holiday, book 1 month in advance
4. Buses to any state in malaysia should be booked in singapore
5. Get chinese bus agency (communication wise)
6. Two-way tix please...

overall, trip was great. especially with dar, accompanied by her cute lil sis joan and her bubbly sis-in-law karen! did tons of shopping! one sungei wang is enough for us during da 2 days there... da far east alike shopping mall shops had their cash register ringing continuosly... anyway, i only bought brown leather bag (good buy) there, and got a t-shirt from dar... really appreciate our host, they are my dearest uncle and auntie, whom welcomed us to put up in their house and drove us around... a very special thanks to my beloved cousin jeff, whom brought us around and helping out with stuff, especially taking care of da 3 ladies...

from what he told me, he really enjoyed having us there... who wouldn't be happy when you have ya very close cousin who brought 3 babes along there? LoL! really overwhelmed to see all of us click in an instance... cheers!

as you can see, having a cousin like mine is really a blessing, similar to dar having serene and yunfang... met them up at parkway parade juz da day before we set out to kl... with much familiarity and comfort amongst us, topics over conversation were interesting and my contributions aplenty...

da greatest of all things i've ever did in my life is to love you and loving you till the end of time...

2004-08-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

with enlistment for ns drawing near in a matter of months, which da date has yet to be confirmed, i have this excitement inside me that i can only tell that i'm nervous yet willingly receiving it wit both hands. further deferment was made yesterday, although da date of enlistment was changed, will my posting to police academy change as well? unsure. da dilemma of wanting to be in either police academy and tekong training, i do not have da choice, but only heed to CMPB's posting... however, having sent my application for air force pilot, i'm ready to put up my best performance in wherever i get posted to, to be able to qualify for OCS. reasons for my dilemma mentioned above, it's 3 months less if i'm in tekong to know if i qualify for OCS. for the other thing is that if i were to fail in any part for pilot, especially in medical check-up wise, i wanna be a police... yeap!

did some information search on being a pilot and got this:

"Initial selection is done by way of a paperwork assessment of the application (experience and school results). If selected for the next phase, an applicant will then undergo medical, psychological, dental, and co-ordination testing. If the applicant passes those tests, they will need to appear before a selection board which will also assess their speaking ability, leadership on practical problems, team spirit, maturity, and motivation. For pilot training, motivation and capacity for hard work are two of the biggest determinants."

i believe i have most of da qualities listed above, yet i lack some! so what i need to do now is to improve on what i lack! you guys muz be wondering how i'll be doing it, i'm not too sure yet, and i hafta start planning and act. there muz be no room for errors when i'm in for da selection.

wish me luck!

2004-08-02T10:20:00.000+08:00

monday = mask day! so later at 3pm, i will make my trip to CMPB before heading to dar's home! a guy doing mask? well, at this age, not only gals make themselves look betta, guys too! this is what you call da metrosexual guys, spending some amount of time and money to beautify/maintain themselves looking good and feeling good... plus, i have ma loving dar dar to help me out and provide me with those stuff... she does my nails too you know... one more thing to add, to all couples out there, do some stuffs that you thought you may not try together wit ya love ones! enjoy da process and you'll feel really great, allowing you to understand ya betta half betta!

while yesterday was like:
- slept till 1300hrs...
- meal
- while doing dar's book,
- caught "jiang hu" = nice show
- taxi 1 = funny n awesome!
- taxi 2 = awesome n funny!
- met dar n shopped at tm ntuc
- her home n she cooked jap curry! = YUMMY!
- chatted with her siblings and her sista-in-law
(real funny! esp when her bro went on n on with BIG! LoL!)
- went through her bro's n her babyhood photo album
- went through her bro's vcd library collection!
- slacked and headed home...

saturday? simply great day for sleeping! da both of us juz slept our afternoon away... then we played! what did we play? juz simply play wit each other lor... LoL! then had our meals and watched tv, not to miss out on dar taking lotsa pics again! she's such a cutie! then she slept again! till 1 plus am then i sent her home...

simple life like these sometimes is great! enjoying and cherishing every moment together!

2004-07-31T09:14:00.000+08:00

thrilled bout this coming afternoon!

yesterday
companion: dar dar
location: marine parade/parkway parade
food: curry puff n KFC
things bought: pink sweater, lay's salt n vinegar potato chip(our fav!), gummy sweets, shower cap(all dar's)

2004-07-30T09:23:00.000+08:00

sumptuous feasting of crabs with supercuts @ amk blk 232!
dishes in respective order:
- white vege (dunno da name!)
- chilli kang kong
- black pepper crab
- butter crab
- bee hoon crab
- chilli crab accompanied with small fried buns!

gr8 time! merry company! pamela is such a tantalizer... qin qin is so cute n sweet!

2004-07-29T09:25:00.000+08:00

super late i was this morning! woke up at 0815hrs, then showered and... aiyah, cut short! reached workplace at 0855hrs...

we had a good tofu and mushrooms dinner last night, which dar did da soup and her mum da rest of da dishes! really enjoyed da food, YUMMY! you see, there are shitake, oyster mushrooms and my fav enoki! however, dar doesn't seem comfortable within herself... from her expressions and words that came out of her mouth, i could only back off, try to make cheer her up and hope that she will feel more comfortable after that... reason/s? nah, nothing much...

still, we had a great time at da doorstep when i was about to leave... it's really so serene and nice and comfortable when there's juz da 2 of us chatting... da hugz made up for it all... a hug is one of da best thing you can get from ya love one, it juz brings so much feel and brings comfort and calmness to each other...

finally caught "mean girls" on tuesday! i would say that it's only an OK show... more suitable for the teenagers, and not for those 21 above... lindsay lohan is pretty and sexy, which made up for da show! overall, it's a pretty interesting movie that relates to mean people pretty words aren't actually truthful, but an act...

"know yaself. compliments and comments are juz guides for you to improve on yaself! juz guides!"

2004-07-27T09:16:00.000+08:00

E.I. it's tueday alright... pretty much like da usual day... no stress, no pressure, no nothing to push me... isn't it great? but sometimes, i need them, or else i'll get really bored... not important though... however, i look forward to meeting dar dar everyday! she makes my day, everyday!

right after work yesterday, went to meet dar, but this time, it's at a different bus stop. complaining bout her swollen right knee, which i think she knocked her knee against something da day before... is there a day when she doesn't knock against anything? hmmm...

and so we had home-cooked dinner over at her place. munching, laughters and friendly disputes over da dinner table as i listened, watched and laughed! jealous over bias? LoL! those friendly disputes certainly displayed some lovingness in da family... and da lil' sis of hers got really confused over taking a shower. to shower now? shower when we get home? wash hair? dun wash hair? LoL! juz becoz da whole family was going to parkway parade...

and we did go to parkway parade right after jiayi had her quick shower... hitched onto dar's brother's modified toyota vios! thrilling ride? not my cuppa tea though... LoL! once we got there, dar and i seperated ourselves from them... it's been a long time since i last went to parkway parade, and juz when we were talking bout it da day before... refreshing indeed... her whole family, except for granny went shopping at giant... got their groceries and stuff, and we got da lay's salt and vinegar chips!!! wheee!!!

then this time, we hitched into her dad's car... got home, had chips while waiting for her to finish her shower... it was mask day, so i got my face washed/scrubbed before laying down for her to apply da mask on my face... funny and i really enjoy mask... really fun, especially when it's done with dar!

that's about it homies! time to get back to my boring updating of the eRepository... can i request to be in some magical adventurous world? hmmm... although i really cherish this mundane life, i need some thrills and excitement... yeah!

dar, it was fun last night, even till i left ya home... LoL! kitchen seems like fun! Muahahaha!!!

2004-07-26T10:14:00.000+08:00

it's monday again! yet another week had juz passed by... so what did i do during my weekend?

starting from friday! dar had to leave her workplace early, early by 2 hrs to meet her 2 sistaz, val and micky. but i requested for her to come over to help me out with da payment for da developing of photos... so she came over and went off to meet them up. right after work, i went straight to bedok to meet up with mummy to pass her da pics, then took bus no. 30 to eunos to meet yunfang, as my task of da day was: meet yunfang, cash exchange for a tube of hand lotion for dar! at around 1845hrs, met up with dar and da rest (val, weide, micky) at fish and co. then dar and i went to ntuc to get some stuff (suppose to only get ham and bread for my dinner).

so on saturday, i woke up, did some stuff at home, before i left for dar's home... da day went like this:
- dar cooked pasta for da whole family. YUMMY!
- potato salad as well! DOUBLE YUMMY!
- r & r
- watched jerry maguire in her room! RELAK JACK SIAK!
- preparation for kok's bday celebration!
- then left for kok's home...
- and to val's home after that...

condolences to val. sorry for your grandma's departure...

woke up early on sunday, with mummy to go to sg. rengit... after an hour of boat ride, we reached da town of no stress! da rural area by da beach sure made my day felt like i'm so free! went to my cousin's infamous crystal jade garden restaurant for my usual lobster treat! then haircut at another cousin's salon... great! my hair is short and light brownish! too light, not so nice though... Zz... overall, i feel more comfortable and neater now... then took da boat back to singapore, where i went home to change before meeting up with dar, along with kl & kj for dinner at mos burger... love my siblings!

right after dinner, dar and i met up with micky and we took a cab down to amk to val's grandma's wake. then chatted and played cards there, while dar played peanuts -_-" they then started playing mahjong, and da three of us(micky, dar and i) left...

dar, da last at ya door was da best i've ever had, which made me felt like i was floating in mid air! *chuckles (our secret!) LoL!

2004-07-22T14:12:00.000+08:00

today is my black day! i dunno why am i in this black-from-top-to-toe... there's supposed to be this site visit to da ministry of finance, but it was postponed, and ms doreen ho forgot to tell us about it! Zz... thanx are ms doreen... i've to walk around with my dad's big shoes... though it suits my body build, it's too loose... *dang!!!

actually wanted to head home during lunch time to change. however, my sweet dar said she wanna see me in formal wear, so here i am waiting for knock off time to show myself in formal wear to her... it's not like she had never seen me in formal before, it's different now... as she said, i'm presenting myself in formal as her dar!!! how cute you see!!! how can i even go against her wish???

finally had our ramly burger yesterday! it was good... not as good as sg. rengit's!!! LoL! bought it at da pasar malam near bbs... while at the pasar malam, we watched this master who could release ya joints and allow ya shoulders to from back to front! amazing! one thing more stunning was da spectator right beside me was yiuhong! wtf! we were standing there for like around 30mins and we didn't notice each other!!! well, it's been a long time since we last met... hope we can gather again like how we did in da past!

da night before was along with my dar to a surprised family gathering dinner! juz when we reached da void deck of my block, my family came down to da car... and dad told us to hop on to have our dinner! i looked at dar, and she agreed... we hopped into da car without hesitation... (familiar line?) LoL! went to pick up grandpa and grandma as well... it's been quite some time since i last visited them, how unfilial! well, i visit my dad's mom more often...

had fun during dinner... conversation amongst da adults were pretty interesting... how come they can have so much to talk about? relatives, friends, people, etc...??? well, noted down on one of dad wishes! in 3 years time, he wants to go to this "liao" country to build a skool for da kids there! i'm gonna fulfil it with him! so dad, here we go!

juz when i thought that i dun have much to write, i ended up creating such a lenghty post! enough of blabbering and back to work!

dar dar! da vcd you wanted is here! when should we watch it together?

2004-07-20T16:29:00.000+08:00

Dear peh, siang & xm,

da times we had together were wonderful! really appreciated ya company together as 1 FFU! brothers of FFU got enlisted one by one to serve NS to become da man they will be... xw, emmanuel, hechi, liar, weicheng and peow already in, soon to be my turn and others... this time is da 3 of you at once! in juz hours, you guys will be in hendon camp for NS tomorrow! wish you guys all da best and achieve ya red beret! for honor and glory! you guys are strong, believe yaself! well, 3 weeks will soon go by and we'll meet again! for now, we'll miss you all! take care and love ya all!

Cheers!

2004-07-20T11:50:00.000+08:00

imagine every weekday's morning facing boring cataloging on the eRepository! Zz... i'm getting bored with the work i'm doing, even had to do OT yesterday till 6pm... DAMN, no pay still OT!!! good news today, no OT. bad news, OT till 7pm or 7.30pm tmr!!! WTH!?!? oh well, life still easy though... LoL!

didn't catch mean girls last night, dar dar and i are juz tight on cash... already caught quite a couple of movies for da past few weeks. maybe one movie per week is more than enough? you know, we needa save up, lotsa saving up... we need da fund for our stuff, like going somewhere a few months later... hehe!!! and the upcoming batam trip!!! ok... so we were at dar's home, had dinner with her whole family, except for her dad who was watching tv and having dinner in da comfort of his room... laughters still filled da dining room! such rowdy family, especially crazy joan, who frightened da luo han fishes with her siao lang laugh!... anyway, it wasn't my first dinner with them... it's been such a long time since my family had dinner together! maybe these few days, since dad is in town...

after dinner, gotta eat ben & jerry's ice cream, which dar likes and bought da night before... hmmm... chocolatie i muz say... *urgh! my throat! then juz basically slacked till i saw a light bulb over dar's head! and so we went to have our faces washed and scrubbed. first time i scrub my face. then she lay me on her bed... slowly and gently she filled my face with da mask substance... well, mine was a white mask and hers was a dirty green coloured mask... after around 20 mins, she carefully peeled off da white piece mask off my face (i like da feeling). and there i have my good looking face! LoL! well, her granny kept complimenting on my pinkish cheeks complexion... guess dar did a good job for me! dar!!! every monday do mask ar!!! haha!!!

so happy yesterday! and today will be a happy day too... going to huiying's bf, aaron's birthday celebration later in the evening!

dar! ya blog very cute hor!? LoL! so sweet! wonder if ya know what are da designs and colours of all my boxers... MUAHAHAHAHA!!! ok then... as i said, there are still many things to be discovered... BA LA BA BA BA!!! i'm lovin it!

2004-07-19T08:51:00.000+08:00

monday monday... da level of personal comfortability increased througout da past few days. it's da start of a more relieve week... especially when my wish came true... also after the presentation on sat, da stress level dropped drastically... phew!

was so afraid to sleep on friday night, burnt midnight oil till dawn to finish up da email management report and presentation... felt really dizzy like i was about to faint... however, met up with my baby after work, felt a lot betta when she's around... went over to my home, we juz lazed around and took a nap... guess both of us were tired and sleepy... woke up, played around like kids, LoL! well, no one else was home, except my bro and his gf... thankfully, his gf cooked us dinner that night, so we didn't have to wreck our mind on what to have for dinner... after dinner, took lotsa pics, pics of us, with hats, caps, sword, anything we can get hold of... about 70+ pic?! basically, it was a very wonderful day, no one to even bother us while we have our jolly good time together...

during nightfall, met up with miki for brotherhood at tm gv. i really wondered why 8 days only gave da show 2 and a half stars... they deserve more stars than that... shan't elaborate anything about that show. wanna know? juz go and catch it... it's worth da bucks!

sunday, had some family time at home... oh yeah, now with an additional xbox to play with... not so interested though, it's juz another alternative for games for me when i really have nothing to do... still prefer ps2...

evening time, dinner at marina south's zhen fa huo hai xian with cynthia, jingyi, weide, amelia, miki and dar dar... food rating not bad. amount of food rating good. company rating very good. with dar beside me rating superb! LoL! maybe i can organise something like that at home someday...

that's about it for da past few days... received feedback from my ffu brothers and close friends that they didn't quite understand my blog... maybe it's becoz of the amount of representations that they didn't quite manage to catch, i'll simplify future post aight?!

everyday is a great day and will be greater! i'm lovin it!

catching da bimbotic show, mean girls later... yeah!

captain you know who you are, shall we set sail?

2004-07-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

This song i sing for you know who you are...
I can love you like that by All-4-One

They read you Cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your prince charming
Would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
And you never will forget
The way it felt when Romeo kissed Juliet
And all this time that you've been waiting
You don't have to wait no more

CHORUS
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move heaven and earth if you were my girl
I would give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything
That's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that

I'd love you like that
I could love you like that
I never make a promise that
I don't intend to keep
So when I say forever,
Forever's what I mean
Well, I'm no Casanova but
I swear this much is true
I'll be holding nothing back
When it comes to you

You dream of love that's everlasting
Well, baby open up your eyes

CHORUS

If you want tenderness,
I've got tenderness And I see through to the heart of you If you want a man, who will understand You don't have to look very far I can love you, I can love you, love you

CHORUS

2004-07-16T01:57:00.000+08:00

a fun night da night before... and tonight, i'm in a very bad state...

wednesday, i was on mc... at around 5pm, i requested dad for his car... after much persuasion, he gave in and lent it to me... i drove to pick up my darling at her workplace, then we proceeded to century square to see if she can get a haircut, and to meet up with michelle... (my mind is so occupied with stuff, i can't remember things about da day before!) ok! *take a deep breath... we went to walk around to waste some time. michelle finally knocked off, then i drove them to my darling's home. i went to see a doc and collect da redeveloped pics. since i still have some time, i sent da pics to darlin's home... and i got home late, supposed to reach home by 8pm exactly! i got fucked by dad! well... Zz...

mambo night. siang, peh and xm are going in, into commando juz few days later. their final mambo before reporting to hendon! but xm didn't turn up... many of ffu were there, peh, siang, hechi, emmanuel, johnny, singh, xw, xy, edmond, yogi, ant, me and our very close leroy, then celeste, cindy and her friend jae (however you spell it...) were there too... first time i tried flaming lamboghini, not bad... well, phuture was so freaking packed, i dun feel comfortable inside, and i went outside to take a breather... while i saw hechi was pretty drunk outside... gave dar a call, da whole night, she was on my mind, and she always is... really happy to hear her voice... dar, i love you! after da whole mambo ended, we went to geylang for supper, i didn't eat... then went home...

tonight, went to meet up dar after her work... got to supercuts and trimmed her fringe, then had pastamania. 1945hrs, her dental appt, took 292 there... felt kinda nervous, not juz her, but me as well... dental check up?!?! it's been years... more than 8 years since i last visited a dentist!!! after her dental thing, she was so happy that her she got her tooth filled, her teeth checked and polish! so very cute, like a lil' gal, as she bounced around, swung around and giggled! i really love da way she did everything, never have i seen anyone her age like that before, da cutest gal i've ever seen...

well, sent her home... and we went out to da staircase again... we sat and read da 8 days, then played with each other for awhile, and came da traumatising facts... i really hate it, but those are what we hafta face... i dun understand why we have to go through these... maybe someone up there wants us to realize things that we have yet to realize before going further in this relationship... thanx ar up there!

my dear, by da time we realize what we need to, we have become betta part of us... it's not all that bad... *looking at da brighter side... when you're tired, juz rest, and you'll be strong again... please dun give up, please! i need you! this storm we're going through will soon be over... and by then, no one will ever be able to affect us or even break us apart! for you are da reason i'm holding on, my love for you will never die...

board da ship when you're ready. from there, we'll go on da journey designed for da both of us... together, we won't be misleaded...

2004-07-14T12:23:00.000+08:00

i'm home today, mc for da day...

yesterday, after work, i went to meet up dar for a while, and accompanied her to da mrt station... she was on her way to meed up adeline... i went to visit liar chong, who injured his right knee during a soccer match, and is now on clutches... had dinner at his home (courtesy of his mum), and her mum even packed some rambutans with a durian kueh for me to bring home... thank you auntie, really appreciate it... ivan, hoping for your speedy recovery!

then i left to meet my mummy... god father was there, he bought me a shirt (thank you!)... i sat down to chat with da uncles, sipping white wine and xo, especially with da group who went to taipei with... da uncle wants to bring me there again, complimenting on my personality and being so young to see a da world many adults have yet got da chance to see... then my mummy got her friend to drive me home...

July da fourteenth two thousand o four, venturing through da open sea on board "Javier", a ship that wasn't actually meant for any rescue mission... but "Javier" was built, built for one he loves, whom he is rescuing, not only that, there are still so many things on board awaiting for her as he is ready to embark on a neverending journey...

i dived into the open sea and grabbed you tight, for this time, i'll never let go, till we board da ship and embark on our journey i will still never let go... to board da ship requires your will... i'm already giving all of myself to bring you on board... this is for real... to be continued...

2004-07-13T09:53:00.000+08:00

finally, caught my fav super hero, spidey II in my web with ma baby last night... great show! swings and leaps and agility and actions and love and motivations and sacrifices and responsibilities and focus, you juz hafta know what you want! with all those comedies added into da movie, they did tickle my funny bone... imagine meeting spidey in a lift, and he gave his most honest opinion on being in da suit? LoL!

before da show, had teppanyaki, beef for da meat for both of us... it's been eons since i last had teppanyaki! not bad... and after da show, we headed for baby's home, put down her stuff, then headed downstairs for some quality personal time... it was one of those best time when all we did, smelled, looked and talked were juz on ourselves, simple as that... i really love it, so peaceful and serene, except for occasional passer-bys who walked past us... it's so comfortable to be embraced in each other's arms... more of this is needed, not juz for da 2 of us, but for any couple out there... you'll love it...

i spoke my mind, she contributed hers... it was like 2 hearts were pacing each other's heartbeat...

juz received a telegram on a rescue mission:
young lady spotted in an open sea waiting to be rescued... to be continued...

2004-07-12T10:35:00.000+08:00

while i was shitting in da toilet, i had some thoughts that was running in my mind... have you ever wondered if there is this person who plays many different roles in ya life, as soulmate, a sista and da one whom you love, love as in love? everytime she's there, and she mean so much to you... wow! i mean, can this be happening? what lies in da future? da one that you love becoming ya gf or even ya wife...

well, that was my thought, anyone out there who is in this kinda situation, do lemme know...

excited and overwhelmed i am now, looking forward to catch spidey 2 this evening, i juz can't wait for work to end soon... however, after this post, i need to get back to writing a report of my research on email management...

yesterday, my question did reply... i was amused! anyhow, went to collect da photos, then went up to mick's place to do some stuff and get da cameras, before we headed to tampines for dinner. while slouching at da dinner table after meal at yoshinoya, they saw this pair of AF-1, and were debating on da colour, "pink!", "red!", "pink!", "red!"... haha! "red?"...

went up to val's counter, and i left to meet up with ma breadrins at coffeebean for da weekly chill out session, i missed out quite a lot of them... as usual, mingled around with tissue paper, talked cock, criticized and complimented on those passer-bys, laughed out loud, had seedless lychees (courtesy of don) and simply laid back to relax...

after that, all left, and i went back to jane & co. there i was playing with ma camera, taking pics of them, and baby simply went taking pics of us, upteen shots! i'm lovin it!

time to head home, walked her home, and on da way, i said something that hit da sensitive point in her, oops! could feel that she was unhappy, or rather mad... so i changed topic... till her doorstep, she was still mad at me... something which hitted me hard when da reply from her when i asked if there's anything else was, "there's nothing else in my home that belongs to you!". i left...

reached home and i fell into bed, couldn't help it but snoozed off... till a missed call woke me up... i called back and asked what happened, from her voice i could sense... alright, it's not totally him this time, it was me... not being sensible enough, i let her hang up to go and sleep... i smsed her to let her know if she wants to tell me anything, juz gimme a call, i'm waiting... and so she replied that she's mad at me. i called back to ask, she did not want to tell, coz she thought she was over sensitive. i insisted for da matter, which i actually somehow knew... she blurted it out. i'm so sorry for not being sensitive enough baby... well, da matter was then cleared last night over da phone. and there we were joking and laughing about fears we have and used to have...

i swear that what happened before in da past that you dreaded will never happen on you again, especially when it's me involved. or i shall die a horrible death.

2004-07-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

will you ever come and look for me when i don't go and look for you?

2004-07-10T16:27:00.000+08:00

"But(uh) it ain't that easy for you to back up and leave him
But(uh) you and dirty got ties for different reasons
I respect that"

tonight will be da last night we meet before lighting da candle of decision-making period. till da whole candle burns out and da wax floods da surrounding, which i dunno when, things will be crystal clear. no matter how da outcome will turn out to be, i wish it to be blissful...

last night wasn't much of a fantastic night, but uh, it was great to be doing things with da one you love, her maiden trip... there are still so many first time for her, to fly in an aeroplane, scuba diving, see da sunflower park, pluck strawberries and so many more... i hope to be da one beside her when she is there, doing so many things for da first time...

"what if" things dun turn out to be what i pray and hope for? i hate to think about this... however, life will never be easy for me... i hate to do this, but it may be da day i hafta pack up and leave, to pursue my dream, pursuing it in a very much different way, juz for da sake of pursuing it, nothing next, but da career of my life...

never before have i been in this state, so deep into it, so emotional, such persistance, being hopeful everyday, so unbearable and hard to let go, staying on till i fail, truely fail... so please pray for me as i pray for myself for this everlasting relationship to hit on me for real... i love you and i need you... you dunno what you mean to me...

2004-07-09T08:50:00.000+08:00

da day i've been looking forward to da whole week! it's gonna be party tonite, most interestingly is that ma baby is going... virgin trip to clubs, da one that she went previously to dunno what kinda dumb club isn't considered... LoL! so after work, i'll juz meet up with her at our usual meeting place, to her home and let her get changed and hip up, before we meet up with da rest at orchard. i'll juz go to her place to wash my face...

yesterday after work, we met up at our usual meeting place. think my mum didn't cook, i went over to baby's home for fish slices satay bee hoon. her parents did da cooking. quite nice though da sauce wasn't thick enough... slacked for awhile before meeting up with them at tm... they were having genki for dinner when we arrived. having insufficient seats, baby and i hopped over to cafe cartel till they ring us... drank and played around with da glass of mango passion.

last night was one of my very few trips to ktv, and i did sung a few songs... i know i can't sing, but i juz wanna give it a go... sorry to have made those (val, micky, weide, amelia and baby) who went suffer. even when i was in taipei, those trips to ktvs were none other than juz laze around, listening to da adults singing away...

aight! that's about all... looking forward to da next chapter, which had juz begun. it's da one that will affect da next half of my life da most...

2004-07-08T09:30:00.000+08:00

thursday morning, it's drizzling outside. i'm feeling much betta, compared to da past few days... she's feeling quite good today too... i'm so happy she is...

yesterday, we went hunting for da pair of shoes she wants, nike dunk pro pink, at queensway shopping centre... went back disappointed, coz we didn't manage to get it, i was very upset, might be more upset than she was. (hmmm... i was more enthu for her to get da pair of shoes. LoL!) da pair of brown and green tick nike dunk pro looks good, betta than air force 1 valentine, but she couldn't settle for that, as she really wants da pinky pair... she bought a few pairs of earrings, earrings are pretty cheap though, gals ought to go there and get a few pairs. saw this samurai head gear, AWESOME!!! i really wish to own it, it's so cool! i would display it proudly if i'm da owner, maybe put it on! haha! saw some knitted bikinis, none of da colours she wants... such sexy stuff...

we then strolled to ikea! i really like ikea, so many furnitures and stuff... all those settings made me wanna reset my home's. but dun think so for now, till i move out to my own room. thinking of changing to sofa bed in my room, of coz one with really hard mattress... so many ideas that we shared, like how we want our future home to look like, fitting some furnitures and stuff into da zen furnishing. and if i were to have my own room, she will put lotsa pictures of her around... ok, then we got hungry, so as planned, we had dinner at da ikea's own eating house. she had meatballs with potatoes, i had curry chicken (wednesdays serve curry chicken), and shared a chocolate mousse. yummy! it's her first time consuming there, i'll bring her there more often, especially to buy stuff... i've still yet to get my mirror!!! it was a painful trip for us, thanks so much to da sparks and electrocution between us as our arms rubbed again each other's...

anyway, we went to my second home after that, owner of da flat, mummy! got da 2 shirts she bought for my brother and i... then talked to her for awhile before we bidded her goodbye. took da train home, dar was so tired, she slept all da way from queenstown to tampines, and i only started sleeping from city hall... sent her home, and i headed home as well...

some matters still bugging me... are we moving on? nvm, i shall juz wait for you to sound or will you not?

one last thing to add. 7th july 2003 is when i got my driving license. was in probation, with only 12 points until yesterday. and now, i have 24 points for my license! no more p-plate! LoL! siao~!~!

2004-07-07T09:48:00.000+08:00

i'm lost, yet hopeful. i'm so very alive, yet i'm dying inside. is da flame inside failing me or did i accidentally extinguished it? somebody please bring me outta this...

yesterday after work, we met at da bus stop. instead of boarding those crampy buses to da central, we walked da ever so familiar route there. i yearn to walk with her through ages. while waiting for val to meet up with us, we strolled around da malls, patronizing retails. we went through books in times and audio visual stuff in music junction. overheard her conversation on da phone with her mum i guess, she asked, "who will want me and marry me?". i wanted to raise my hand and jump up to say "i do!" (inside me, i did that), but i was held back due to doubts like, will she think that i'm juz kidding or will she even accept... still too soon to know, until then we shall see. well, it might be embarassing to da both of us if i did that juz then.

val came, then proceeded to kenny roger's for dinner. food's good, becoz mood's good. especially when she's around... though food's actually normal. i juz like scooping from and to her plate and she scoops from and to mine. we remained in kenny, talking, writing and reading. left place finally to meet up with amelia and weide.

as we sat outside tm, weide came. and while we were chatting, he turned back and saw a policeman trying to write him a summon for parking his bike at da pavement. taunted and surprised, he ran over to try and explain, but to no avail, he received a 70 bucks fine. how depressing to juz park a bike there and be fined 70 bucks... then came amelia, and da 3 of them left for dinner/supper after awhile. and da both of us walked to her home, then i left for mine after i saw her to her doorstep.

standing tall over matters that highly affect me emotionally, i must. becoz i still need to save da one who is drowning. never will i allow da one i love and dote da most to drown.

2004-07-06T09:20:00.000+08:00

everything seems back to normal. normal as in nothing much special, juz like weeks before, on da surface. but deep down inside, it's still the ability to hold on, "how long will this last?", i asked myself...

juz by hearing her voice over da phone eased all da tension and discomfort inside me. hearing her laughter made me contented. well, laughter is da best medicine, so one muz be happy! one thing about being happy, this simple thing can be very difficult sometimes. i muz say it is one of da best thing in da world. i believe that i live to bring it to her... so Dar, pardon my lameness, stupidity and insensitivity...

i might have told you too much, but they are actually nothing important. please dun make any assumptions. i won't leave you. so when you need me, you can call me, look for me, or request for me anytime, anywhere, no reason required. i'll be more than willing to...

2004-07-05T08:40:00.000+08:00

silence filled the air, while i was hanging up da phone. recalling da last conversation i juz had with her, i'm falling from da happiest moment of my life to da darkest deepest tunnel. a glimpse of light still able to be seen. i do not consider what i allowed to happen was wrong yet right. it's wrong for letting it almost kill me inside, yet it's right for her to find out what's inside her. "it didn't happen, it didn't really happen right?", i asked myself. throughout da conversation, i tried to make things clear, but it's not up to me to decide if it's clear enough but her. she needs some time to sort things out, nothing else i could do, but gave in. if i'm optimistic enough, juz a little bit of it, there might be da slightest hope. i can't imagine if da slightest hope isn't there, what will happen to us or to me. it's like a heavily wounded soldier in a battlefield, waiting to be saved, how long is he able to hold on till help arrives, till he breathe his last breath... i am now in my weakest state, dun anyone trigger this time bomb. hopefully, i can still maintain my composure, till i meet the outcome. i'm in control of myself, but i dun think it won't be for long.

dragged myself to shower, as i thought i should let something else overrun my thoughts. i went for ss, met up those who once helped me overcame such state before. this time, it's different, it didn't work. stepped into da court for da first time in months, i played, tried not to be reminded of what juz happened. it didn't work. i gave up, and sat aside. da pain struck me again, i held on to myself, "hong, you're strong!" in my mind. tears at the brim of my eyes, i withheld, "it's not the end yet hong!". having no one to turn to, but myself.

a few blocks away is where my love and hope lives. i gathered my courage and gave her a call to ask her down. we met, i felt both joy and sadness when i saw her. anyway, i tried to look alright, we talked again. i pulled out a happy front to make her feel at ease. i thought and told da funniest joke i could recall, we laughed. ordered da same bk meal, this time with an additional med sprite, we ate. talked about those unforgettable memories in sec sch track team, we reminisced. it was time to part, i had to leave unbearably.

i forced myself to da lift, to da bus stop, to board da bus and to enter my home. "hong you got home safely!", yes i did, as i told myself.

well, it's monday today, i'm blue... though i received a sms from her that hoped my mondays never blue. i'm holding on to myself by minutes, every minute passed, i bless myself that i can hold on to da next.

i need you, and i wanna be with you and only you. you might have thought too much, hope you sort them out soon. right here waiting...

2004-07-03T10:37:00.000+08:00

yes!!! SATURDAY!!! so? hmmm... i'm now in da office, it's up to 1pm. well, first thing i got into da office, ms doreen ho told us to go and have our breakfast and come back at 9.30am. cool! so off me and su headed to design canteen.

yesterday was val's fashion design graduation show(congrats to valerie!), da group of us(val's dad, weide, micky, huiying, aaron, amelia, dar and me) were there to support her. we watched, took pictures and filmed those models as they paraded in designers' wear. a run of themes made the show all so interesting and fun to watch. sesame streets, teddy bear, etc... especially downtown nonya, which is val's.

after the show, all of us took some pictures outside da building and headed to kopitiam for dinner. then after dinner, with much dicussion and dilemma, we finally decided on the breeze, pasir ris park.

holy cow! guess who i saw at the breeze? some of my FFU buddies(peh, xm, ant and yogi)! god! it's been quite some time since i last saw them! miss them a lot! introduced my baby to them, then talked to them. dar, i know i neglected you for that moment, hope you didn't mind, and i know you didn't mind right? *grins. got back to dar's side with da orginal group i went with. joined in their conversation, had a beer and chilled. let dar had a few sip of beer, to allow her to get used to da taste, maybe teach her how to drink a little. thanx to weide for da treat. left the place, and thank you amelia for da ride to jane's house.

that's about it for yesterday... yet to plan for today... still ain't sure what time dar's gonna meet me, so i think i shall head home after work and sleep for awhile. aight! time to get back to work! i'm outta here.

2004-07-02T09:37:00.000+08:00

finally it's friday! so what's with friday? dunno... still gotta work half day till 1pm on sat, then i'm like planless... lemme see,

option 1. stay home and sleep sleep sleep and accompany grandma
ootion 2. meet up with friends
option 3. ask my cousins out for coffee
option 4. call gals out to town

i think i shall take all 4 options! can i handle? LoL!

anyway, yesterday was pretty alright. was over at my boo's house. supposed to be home for dinner, but since her mum told me to have fish and chip dinner there, i couldn't resist da temptation, so i joined in for dinner. fishes and chips aplenty, with potato wedges, calamaries and chunk soup to go with it. there were already quite a few sessions of dinner there. *wonders if auntie thinks that i'm trying to get free dinner there... haha!

after dinner, it was r & r there, listened to music, talked about anything, did manicure for me (da arm massage part was SHIOK!) and juz basically laze around. dar, my fingernails seem weird...

reached home at around 11pm, showered and had this discussion about going to batam late july for this cable ski thing, seems fun and exciting! it's for avis to do da planning for us (yiling, avis, jane, me and more!). i think he did say something bout his aussie friend, a gal is in town... so avis, how bout meeting up tonight? =X

while discussing, i was having another conversation with this guy name quan sheng. imagine like wth! he's my baby's ex neighbour, and he was one of those boys whom i used to hang around with at his place. he's a friend of my primary skool best friend, as my best friend used to live in that neighbourhood. so dar and i are fated to meet, but da time wasn't ripe that time. so near yet so far at da playground near blk 297... imagine if we were to take pictures then, she would be in da background of my pic, and me in da background of hers. sounds like turn left turn right...

well, dar juz called and told me that she's feeling sleepy juz hope she'll get through it. that's for now. am i gonna club tonight? Zz...

2004-07-01T08:56:00.000+08:00

*yawnz! thursday morning, work work work... i'm now typing this post in da office. my dear ol' grandma is in town, and she'll be coming over to my house. so i'll be meeting up dar after work, send her home, then i'll be heading home for dinner.

well, for da past few days, my baby wasn't well, she was down with fever on monday, then rashes due to allergy on tuesday and now a little throat uncomfort.

last night, we went out for dinner at geylang with dar's cousins, serene and yunfang, and nephew, shawn. had frog porridge and beef hor fun. da whole time there was hilarious, with serene to entertain us, had me went home with stomach cramps. she's hell of a joker with many stories to share with us, their embarassing moments and things they did. dar, i think you have many more embarassing moments to share with me eh? i had a jolly good time. can't wait to meet them up again.

caught windstruck on tuesday, it's quite funny yet touching movie. imagine you have a siao on police gf, always on da look out for law breakers, and she can handle 4 lil punks by herself. as in da story, it is da happiest to go travelling with ya love one. and da saddest thing in life is to have ya love one die before you.

ok, enough said. back to work...

2004-06-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

firstly, happy 21st birthday to a-mei, on da 26th of june 2004, which was da day before. really delighted to see that she's so in high spirit. and now, she's got presents to show off, and she was juz showing them off to her family yesterday, how cute!

for da past one week, it's been chalets and visiting da high monk from thailand...

on da night before i had to leave for taipei in da morning, i attended peh's chalet. a thousand apologies for being late. juz before i left for peh's chalet, i was with avis, yiling and a-mei. we had our dinner and chatted at macdonald's, when i finally did what i couldn't bear to do, left a-mei for da chalet...

at peh's chalet, i smsed her and called her to chat with her. when i was at changi airport, on my way to board da plane to taipei, i smsed her. when i reached taipei, i smsed her. da next day, i smsed her. then on my third da there, i smsed her. on da forth day, i smsed her as well. when i got back in singapore, i called her.

it was in taipei that i finally found out whom i really have feelings for and she was on my mind da whole time, she still is now. i couldn't wait to tell her. when i saw her, i was tongue-tied.

actually, 8 years ago, when i finally joined track and field in sec 3, and met da people who were in da cca, that was when we gotta know each other. she wasn't da proud-ass i thought she was. (still remember during sports day, i saw her walked up da spectator stand with that proud stucked up face, i was in sec 2 while she was in sec 1 then.)

during that period of time we gotta meet everytime for trainings. we trained for da same events, which were, 100m, 200m, long jump and some team events like 4x100m and 4x200m. that was how we got close. i did like her before, since she was attached, we eventually became brudder and sista. we did look alike that time though...

went on from sec skool days, to poly days, when we got into da same course. we met once again! how excited was i to see someone i know. still i held on to my long kept secret from her. she got unattached and attached... well, i got attached and unattached too, a few times... this feeling went on for more than 5 years...

until recently, when i've finally got more chances of meeting her, almost seeing her everyday... i poured out everything kept for years to her at da beach near nsrcc, while my dad's friend was having a chalet... juz da 2 of us...

now that we're happily(i am, dunno if she is. LoL!) together, i'm so excited for what lies ahead of us... she juz mean so much to me, i'll do everything for her...

to be continued...

2004-06-25T22:01:00.000+08:00

finally, i've got da chance to compose a new post at my gf's home. yes, i'm currently attached to someone i've known for more than 8 years... yeap, 8 years. so many thing happened for da past few weeks...

my last post was before i left for taipei. taipei trip was da most fulfilling trip i've ever been to. gotta know lotsa new friends and met those ppl with high status, both da good and da bad side... good side was da 101 officials ,da grp that choose who to be nominated to campaign for presidency. then da bad side is actually da bamboo gang leader and his generals. he was our host there, providing us with free accomodation in his hotel, holiday inn asiaworld, dinner with some of his close generals and visited some places of interest. i shall list down da activities by da days spent there:

1st day in taipei
we were picked up by generals of bamboo gang, then brought us to da hotel, where we spent our 5 days 4 nights there.
had dinner at "ah mei fan dian", and we were being served with taiwanese cuisines, and some famous dishes like buddha jump over da wall...
then we went to cashbox ktv, when da adults sang their hearts out in hokkien songs.
one more thing to add, we drank beer da whole night since dinner! bth!

2nd day in taipei
second day in taipei is to fulfil our mission, which is to pay respect to da gang leader's mother, who left this world... it was a grand wake, with representatives from japan, macau, hongkong and many other countries, and us from singapore... they were all featured in da news and newspaper, but not us, coz if we were, it would have been disastrous when we step into singapore. after da wake, we went back to da hotel, and it was time to have dinner with da 101 officials. it was in a big room in a restaurants, served with expensive chinese cuisines. after dinner, we were brought to this paris night club, da ladies there were too old for me, and with my mother beside me, i was being shielded from them. thank god! after nightclub, we went for supper near our hotel. and juz when i needed to buy gel, we walked past watson's, 24hours!!!

3rd day in taipei
we visited da famous temple, forgot da name... anyway, took some pics of da temple, then we strolled down some streets, saw snakes in cages and snake wine... as usual, dinner with da bamboo gang generals. da difference this time was that we were seperated with da women, gals go their way, guys go the other way. more convenient for men suited activities, hehe! had hakka dinner, sumptuous meal indeed. oh, and it was my first time to have tried taiwan's famous gao liang, 56% alcohol!, super spicy drink i would say. after that, we went to cheng's dynasty club, da big group of us finished 7 bottles of scottish wisky. there were some cute gals who came to accompany us drink. da pub was opened by one of xiao gang's(bamboo gang leader) subordinate. great place, great ambience! then xiao gang came at around 1am, drank till 3am, then in 7 cars, we went to dong ya zi zu, a night club with lotsa young skimpily dressed gals. as guests, da singaporeans, which is da group of us were seated inside, with a gal each to accompany. to know more about this, please ask me personally, incredible experience!

4th day in taipei
went to raohe street to shop, and unfortunately, i only got a jacket, a sleeveless adidas jersey for peh's b'day, and 2 pairs of nike shoes, mid revolution and dunk. very rush, as we had less than 2 hours. went back to da hotel to change. then met up with xiao gang and generals for ma la huo guo! so freaking spicy and oily, but it was good. i only ate a few, coz i dun think i can take it... then went to da hill for some tea drinking session by da waterfall. a specially brewed tea call da leng dong cha, superb, and it's gonna be extinct. then we went to night market to do our final shopping, as rush as before, i didn't get anything much... but it was an intresting place to shop. next was to yang ming shan, for spring bath at ma chou. left da place at 5am, reached da hotel, packed up, had breakfast and left for da airport to board our plane back to singapore. thanx to xiang he who drove us there.

that's about it for da taipei trip! more interesting things to blabber about, but it seems to lengthy, i'll be back to update again! cya!

2004-06-12T13:26:00.000+08:00

it's weekend!!! yeah!!! not much different from weekdays though... since i had been sleeping in da day and active at night... having to survive about 1 meal every night was like enough for me... night i meant... i had no days for da week! what did i actually do at night? meet up with friends for supper, drink tea and coffee... and during da wee hours, i juz played dynasty warriors 4, midnight club II and zone of the enders on ps2... Zz...

for da past few days, with my family in thailand(wonders when are they coming back...), dinners were spent with my dearest god sista, jane, and sometimes with miki as well... there was a day or 2 without dinner though... they juz left my house, after spending da night here watching vcd, eating waffles, scrambled eggs, potato salad and some potato chips...

today is cynthia's birthday, so we'll be heading to costa sand for her birthday party. and on sunday, which is tomorrow, it's peh's birthday at NSRCC!!! yeah!!! it'll be a great gathering for FFU!!! too bad guys, i have to leave on monday morning, coz i have a flight to catch... yeap, i'm going to taipei on a morning 8am flight... how miserable to be leaving halfway through da party which will last for 3 days...

i'll update in taipei if i can...

2004-06-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

it's been more than a day since i got home from KL... da KL trip was freaking happening! all we(Aaron, Matt, Garie and I) did were shopping and clubbing in those 4 days there! met new friends, bought new things, made some discoveries and saw one very unexpected celebrity! here are some highlights of da 4 days:

Wednesday (da day we arrived in KL)
- Jalan Petaling aka "chi chiong gai"
- drove to meet some friends of Aaron
- drove to Q Bar at Sunway Pyramid and opened a bottle of Chivas(it's only RM260 and admits 5 ppl!)
- drove to friends' house and drank again
note: Q Bar is a happening place to club, too happening that police came at 2am. too many tables at da dance floor, pretty incovenient even to groove there. clubbers are of my age grp.

Thursday
- KLCC-> Sungai Wang
- dinner with relatives including grandma, uncle and auntie.
- e-net
note: KLCC is a place more suited for roaming around, sungai wang is almost like Far East Plaza.

Friday
- Mid Valley
- dinner at KimGary @ Mid Valley
- drove to Jalan P. Ramlee, that's where is saw Taiwanese celebrity Jacky Wu
- partied at Atmosphere, where we opened a bottle of Hennessy PureWhite(RM290, admits 3)
note: Mid Valley is one of da best mall to go. KimGary serves nice food and low price(RM20 for a set meal), met more friends of Matt. what is Jacky Wu doing in KL? Atmosphere plays Trance/Techno, bars beside with no cover charges plays hip hop. well, clubbing gals there are pretty open, so chat up with them if you want.

Saturday
- bought 11.30pm tix home @ Pudu
- slacked in Starbucks
- dinner in Jalan Petaling
- slacked in Macdonald's
note: we bought night bus tix at 4.30pm! dun ever do that, it's a waste of time to slack for 7hrs... Zz... anyway, we had company, so it was pretty alright...

these sumed up da trip to KL... got home on a Sunday morning and watched my family, excluding Nicholas and me, making a trip to thailand for a holiday... basket, go thailand only inform in da last minute... anyway, it was also my fault without informing them that i was in KL. =P

doesn't matter anyway, i'm going to taiwan on da 14th this month... well, holidays are very enjoyable when you have plans!

"if anyone of you is making a trip to KL, lemme know! yeah! i'll give free guidance of how to have fun there!"

2004-05-27T05:29:00.000+08:00

good morning dawgs! well, juz came back from supper at bonanza somewhere near orchard towers and da sandwich there is good and expensive too. guess what?! we even asked if they want any part timers, especially for night hours, so we filled in our application and passed it to eileen, she's a babe. we juz wait for da reply.

before that, we were at phuture. as usual, wednesday phuture is hopelessly packed with babes and hunks. i did talked to some gals though, but didn't get their name or whatsoever... phuture was a last minute thing as stanley called to tell me that he's free and he wanted to go. ppl who also went: ah boon, emmanuel, michael and friend and ppl from AM...

for da past few days, windows in my house were under renovation... so i stayed home to help with moving of furnitures and cleaning up. other than those things, i played ps2. there is this "midnight club II" game that i'm hooked to. it's a car racing game, no circuit, but streets of some capital like LA and tokyo... cars were those like you see in "fast and furious". one thing interesting about this game is this "battle" way of racing. you hafta get da flag and bring it to da point 3 times first to win. not easy though. competing against 3 other computer cars, when they juz hit you, you lose da flag. in order to get da flag back, you need to hit da one who holds da flag.

that's about how i spent my days without working or studying... juz plain pleasure and some household chores... guess i'm gonna start work soon...

"dun ever be afraid to ask. remember when we were young, we never stop asking, until those stupid adults made us feel that asking is annoying."

2004-05-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

a great pilot seminar! i can't wait to go through those tests and interviews, to know how close am i to being a pilot, fulfilling my childhood ambition! well, i've got more facts and information now, still gotta find out more by asking my sec skool pe teacher, who was a maj. in rsaf and a transport pilot... application sent in... but one thing, i hafta go through 5 months of training in police academy first... that's about it...

after da seminar, went with leroy to his workplace to check his work schedule... nice workplace, so we decided to slack for awhile, sipping mango smoothies, read magazines and chat... then we walked to bugis... shop around and met hanzai... sorry boy, i dun feel like going to chinablack, not in da mood actually... next time aight?! sorry to connie too...

had dinner at kfc then went to meet aaron to have his dinner... saw my sec skool friend in BK! such coincidence... so long no see mei shan... she was with her friend sonia, then jasmine came... seems like she's doing quite well, riding vespa and in the animation line... all da best!

that's about it, heading down to sentosa again! gotta apply da membership, so freaking cheap! if you're like a regular patron of coz...

"you'll never know what da outcome will be, until you have taken action..."

2004-05-22T04:02:00.000+08:00

after 2 days of staying at home and having some good rest, i finally stepped outta my house to visit mummy at queenstown, where she lives... she bought century egg with cuttlefish porridge and bbq chicken wings. so i had them while watching sun wukong! then went to bedok with her. while on da way there in da mrt, melissa called. it surprised me, and we chatted like for 20mins... well, seems like she's still da same...

for now, while composing this post, i'm also chatting with siou fang on msn messenger, guess she's unable to go to KL due to her tight schedule, so i'll juz go alone to look for my cousin. *sigh... anyway, it was a boring night at Dbl O... poor crowd, poor music but cheap drinks! basically, matt, garie and i were chatting most of da time... not even checking out da gals! see how bad it was... well, we've condemned dat place. should have gone to phuture, all thanx to da 2 of them.

sat is da day i've been waiting for! it's da pilot seminar! da chance when i can fact find about RSAF pilot! so i'll be meeting tlc and leroy... gotta gather lotsa information and hopefully fulfill my dream! there will be more updates after da seminar...

"dbl o is only a good place for drinking... i still love wed & fri phuture!"

2004-05-14T03:50:00.000+08:00

after close to a week spent in malaysia(sg. rengit & KL), i'm finally back home comfortably seated and typing away! not really as comfortable being down runny nose and sore throat. muz be all da food and soft drinks. more weights put on! along with my cousin, we came back by da 24 seater coach, which took 5hrs before we reached singapore at around 2030hrs from KL. thanx to da stupid bus with weak air-conditioning, made ever-sweating hong felt really warm and uncomfortable!

days spent were really very fulfilling, with nothing to worry about and all i did was sleep well, have fun and relax... i can go anywhere, anytime i want, no restrictions, no nothing! well, if you had read my previous entry, it already listed some of my activities and places visited in KL... the night market place is actually "Chee Cheong Gai" market street that is. nothing much actually... we then had "Lok Lok" for dinner, which is sticks of food to be left cooked in boiled water before consumption...

on tuesday 1430hrs, my cousin brought me to Mid Valley, a huge mall in Bangsar. anyway, we juz walked around aimlessly to pass our time... at 1730hrs, we left da place. while we took da shuttle bus to da LRT(similar to SMRT in singapore), saw this gal who looks really sweet. long hair, slim figure and has a beautiful smile. well, she alighted at an earlier station, so that's all. but that's not it yet about that gal! reason we left early is to head home for dinner and wait for my cousin's friend to pick us up for tea at 1900hrs.

after dinner, met eddie, who came to pick us up in his white proton wira. then went to pick up regine, a babe with short hair and big round eyes! she's an introvert, didn't even had a word with her from da time she boarded da car, till we reached da condo where melvin lives. can you imagine sitting beside someone in a car and not a single word spoken, not to say a simple introduction was made... until we met melvin and rachel at da nearby coffeeshop. chatted as i was introduced to da group. well, mere conversation with regine then started. rachel is more outspoken, so i talked to her more... finished our drink, we headed to melvin's double storey condo unit. then continued to chat till after midnight, and we headed home... regine is finally more comfortable with me now... as for da rest, they were already used to having me around...

wednesday afternoon was lazy... until after dinner, as planned, we got changed and drove my uncle's land cruiser out in search for zouk. well, it ain't tough becoz of it's unique architecture. wth! no mambo night, unlike in singapore, and only velvet was open. went ahead into velvet only to find out it's empty and it's usually a late crowd... found out more bout zouk and other clubs in KL from this bartender name Sean! really nice friendly guy... we left at 2300hrs and drove to Jalan P. Ramlee, as da whole stretch is full of clubs and pubs... we tried da infamous beach club. crowds are working adults in their 30s, thais and caucasians on holiday. got bored of it and so we left.

went across da road and approached this beautiful gal, who was giving out invitations for da extreme water sports game. i asked her to recommend some clubs of my age, and she named Q bar at sunway... i thanked her and walked to our car! darn! should have asked for her name, coz she is really cute! nvm... we drove our way to sunway, parked da car and went to Q bar! hell of a place with lotsa chinese youngsters! sure a gr8 place to party, with lotsa scantily clad babes... but i saw more guys... da crowd was good, music was rojak! LoL! but overall, this is where i will recommend my friends...

shit! such a long entry... it'll most probably bore you guys...

2004-05-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

wondering where javier is?! javier is in KL right now!!!

activities for da past few days:
- had fun in sunway lagoon, both dry and water theme park!
- shopping @ klcc, sungei wang, time square and some night market places!

a few more days to go, definitely more activities coming up!

i'll be back in a few days!

2004-05-06T13:20:00.000+08:00

a quiet afternoon, the only sound being heard is from the laptop... had a really good sleep, and woke up feeling so refreshed and ready to face every adventure ahead!

yesterday, along with my cousin, went to visit my mummy at queenstown, and that is only da 2nd time my cousin had met my mummy... at her flat we juz chatted and joked around... and yah, she bought a pair of ear studs from SK, some kinda diamond ones for me... juz when i thought my piercing were closed, due to not wearing earrings for quite sometimes, my cousin got the studs through for me! i was overjoyed, being able to wear earrings again! so now, i'm wearing the pair of ear studs...

we left at around 1630hrs, took a cab to far east plaza and shopped around there... well, my cousin didn't eye one anything as usual, except to look at gals... we walked to scotts, then on our way to taka, bought some mrs. field chewy fudge and triple choc cookies... walked around taka, then went over to heeren, and then to cineleisure... nothing much though... so we decided to have some games of pool, and we proceeded to monstercue at meridien hotel... played a few games till we got really bored of it... so we went to plaza singapura and walked around...

after plaza singapura, we went to check out ice cold beer! wow! really crowded there, with lotsa foreigners... so we thought maybe another time... went for dinner at da nearby food court... as we wait for da right time to come before we proceed to zouk, we continued to walk around orchard...

at around 2230hrs, we took a cab down to zouk. cigarette hungry cab driver asked for a cigarette, so my cousin offered him one, and they smoked in da cab! it was killing me, thank god it's only a short journey! anyway, we went in to zouk, and i guided my cousin(virgin trip to clubs) to tour around... it was an eye opener to him, and he asked me questions after questions about clubbing... well, it's all bout having fun!

met ffu there, members present are, seng(another cousin of mine), siang, xm, peh, hechi and yogi... they went their way first, as i was waiting for da arrival for micheal. this guy rocks! he can juz simply approach any gals, getta know them and dance with them... so we were like getting to know gals and dancing with them throughout da night... well, he prefer to move from one gal to another, but i prefer to stay with one... anyway, we simply moved around, without staying with any... LoL! as expected, saw colleagues from AM! da bunch of clubbers!

in that jam packed night, moving around in phuture was a killer... anyway, we still got deep into da densely populated dancefloor... peh sure had a great time slithering with a sexy bah teng in blue, and xm held her friend... not much drink that night... juz dancing and moving around... party ended at 0300hrs, we left and straight to da cab home...

a great night, wonder what is that gal's name... we shall meet again...

2004-05-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!! after spending around 4 days in malaysia with my relatives, since saturday... what did i do there most of da time? what do you guys think? FOOD!!! i was like feasting most of da time. the must eat: sor zai(silly guy? LoL, that's da name...) laksa, malay/ramly burger, yi bao cha lou chee cheong fun, ah chong char kuey teow, and da channel U yummy king winner jade garden restaurant! well, i'm supposed to be on diet, to remove da spare tyre off my waist! i had put on more weight! other things that i did there, relatives visiting, sight seeing of beaches(really nice beaches there) and accompanied my grandmother... main reason i went was becoz my cousin, uncle and auntie from KL, was there...

for the upcoming few days, i'll be bringing my cousin from malaysia around town and maybe clubbing on wednesday night! then we'll head to KL this weekend...

i shall stop here... come back for more updates!

2004-05-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

what a night without clubbing... it seems all so quiet and peaceful without da irritating "NNNNNNNN!!!!" going on and on in my ears! like what perfect 10 98.7 quoted, "it's betta to have a song stuck in ya head". anyway, juz came home from lau pa sat after a meal of "ma la tang" with rice, and had satays and bbq chicken wings... it's been almost a month since i last gathered with my family of ambitious thoughts, some of them are getting really close to achieving their dreams, while i'm only getting close to halfway... max juz bought a condo unit in yishun! bet he's gonna get married real soon...

after attending company's function, i'm very impressed with what cao yuan jie had gone through, and how an ugly duckling really did turned into a beautiful swan! darn, if you had seen her pic when she juz came to singapore, you will probably be in disbelief... great share of ya journey to success, thank you!

ms claudia, you really spent alot on ya baby slk... a 6k gear box and a 2k accelerator thing? wth! how many lv bags you could have gotten, or you could have gone for a trip to hk to shop and eat and shop and eat! you are truly respectable... even when all these problems happened, you could still joke around... like what you thought us, think constructive problems, think solutions... crying over spilled milk won't help at all... "if crying can get my gear box to recover from its problem without spending a cent, i'll do it?" can it happen? LoL! great one! as said, everything happens for a reason, no point brooding over it! thank you ms claudia for those great advices!

THERE ARE NO
LIMITATIONS
TO THE MIND
EXCEPT
THOSE WE ACKNOWLEDGE

BOTH POVERTY AND
RICHES ARE
THE OFFSPRING
OF THOUGHT

"think and grow rich", by Napolean Hill

2004-04-30T14:11:00.000+08:00

april, 30th 2004. few days ago, tuesday, i went to da east coast beach with my course mates and had all exam stressed relieved. while on my way home, saw 2 of my sec skool mates, val and mich, and got pulled along to catch 'starsky and hutch'. (mich, it's not star, sky and hutch) funny movie! especially snoop dog as huggie bear! "nobody touches da bear!"

wednesday juz simply stayed at home to have a good rest, and at night, went to meet yunfang, coz she wanna pass me da polo tee that she bought for me when she went to bangkok 2 MONTHS ago... thank you yunfang!

thursday morning, basketball at marine parade community centre level 3, yes level 3 indoor basketball court... not bad a place. years since i last hit da rim. i still have what it takes to take down da guys! tried some freestyles, argh! effort 10 ability 0!

friday? today is friday... still working out on my plan... please come back to get updated...

Whatever
THE MIND OF MAN
can
CONCEIVE
and
BELIEVE
it can
ACHIEVE

"think and grow rich", by Napolean Hill

2004-04-27T03:06:00.000+08:00

aloha! today, after my very last exam paper, it marked the end of my poly life!(hopefully... LoL!) i was very much relieved. and for my plans ahead, it'll be kept low profile...

now, let's review some activities and thoughts for da past few days...

sunday morning woke up at 0900hrs, which also meant that i slept for only 3 hours... got all prepared and made my way to meet up da guys for sun tan at sentosa siloso beach... sun was simply great, so we immediately removed down to our beach wear(well, i wore board shorts), applied sun tan oil and laid down to tan... we also walked around da beach, saw some friends, took some pics and played some beach volleyball... guess spending almost 5 hours at da beach will turn you into a lobster, you bet i'm one now...

after sentosa, we went to "loca bites" at the esplanade for dinner. curry chicken and white rice was what i had. one word for them, "suck!". after dinner, i went home to revise for my exam for da next day(wtf, exam still go tanning at sentosa?!)

obviously i had no time to sleep, as i revised for CED at 0900hrs. throughout some parts of da paper, i did doze off for a very short while... then at 1200hrs, it marked the end of my poly life... as planned, we went to orchard for lunch and caught "50 first dates". da show is awesome! storyline, scenery, casts, everything are simply too good to be true... a comedy with one hell of a touching storyline and great plots. can get pretty emotional you know. i should say that it is one of da best movie of da decade that i had watched.

after da show, we went to tattoo pub at far east to catch up with da bunch of drinkers celebrating da end of education life... some of them were already quite high. we chilled out and chatted with one another for around an hour, before we depart and go seperate ways. parting took some time as we said some final words and hugged one another. take care guys and gals, till we meet again... erm, tomorrow is course gathering at east coast by da way! LoL!

overall, da past few days was simply good, except for a one thing. i'm now being branded a culprit for snatching a gal away from this person, who claims that she is his gal. well, one thing for sure, she belongs to no one. i'm only dating her, that's all... if you wanna get all fussy over it and spread around ya friends, i can't stop you. hope this will not affect our friendship...

choose to look at da good side of people...

2004-04-25T02:34:00.000+08:00

juz came back from having supper with agm... shall i say that i had a pretty great day... let's see... on friday night, i was in chinablack. although i still have one last paper to go on monday, i took it as a night of relaxation after having 2 continuous night of intense revisions... total ffu strength last night was 8, singh, peh, yogi, siang, xm, peow, wei cheng and me... leroy and group were there too... so we combined forces! a night of 14 guys grooving on da dance floor. we also met melissa ann there... didn't expect it though. after it ended, i could feel aches on both my legs... muz have tired out my legs... reached home at around 0330hrs, then put clothes into washing machine after shower, and went to sleep...

woke up at 1339hrs da next day... hanged those clothes i washed da night before, showered, changed then went to mummy's house... went i reached there, it was already 1600hrs... she cooked me a large bowl of bee hoon soup... very nice although it looked plain, with a few prawns and some meat... i ate till i was late in meeting LSL in orchard!!! supposed to meet at 1700hrs... so i msged her,"will you be late? coz i'll be late..." and she replied,"i'll reach at 5.15pm, if you'll be late, then i'll walk around first..."... expected... while waiting for a cab, i heard a loud engine sound, and i saw this baby blue ferarri drove off, hot!!! on my way, i chatted to da friendly cab driver as usual...

once i stepped out of da cab, i called her to find out where she is... i then accompanied her for a meal... after meal, we shopped at far east. she bought 2 feathery stuff to hang on her handphone and gave the other one to cindy... she also bought 2 of this "remove before flight" thing and i got myself 1. i saw it first!!! LoL! after we finished far east, we walked over to heeren, coz i wanna check out some slippers... on da way, we bought some mrs field cookies... she picked fudge and triple choc and i had triple choc... fudge is her fav as she told me about it. at heeren, she bought a pink water bottle and a black top and i bought a short sleeve shirt. i'm overwhelmed when she kept telling me that she's so happy today, coz she had found and bought so many things that she wanted... met cindy at subway, coz LSL wanted to munch on da sandwich there, and i wanna have my dinner too... chat for awhile, then we went upstairs and i bought a note book and a handphone thingy for my sista, which LSL chose it... (hope you like it gal...)

haizzz... went to ms, then wanted to get into mdm wong, but got checked and i'm like underage... boring, so i left them and went to meet up with agm...

sunday is a sun day! gonna tan at sentosa! cya guys at 0800hrs!

2004-04-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

monday ->> accompanied LSL to see doc ->> then sent LSL home ->> chatted for awhile ->> tuesday ->> stayed home to revise ->> wednesday ->> revise revise, becoz exam is tomorrow!!!

finally received my ns posting letter that goes like this:
You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 14 SEP 2004 (TUE) AT 8.30 AM to POLICE ACADEMY (PA)

i was surprised! becoz there are 3 top choices that i really wanted, they are #1 RSAF Pilot, #2 Police Academy, #3 OCS after BMT, and got my choice #2! anyway, i'm still applying for RSAF Pilot to pursue my dream! wish me luck guys!

i guess you already know how i feel towards you. i like da way you are.

2004-04-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

-DESCRIBE-
[three words that sum you up]: "this" "is" "me"
[jewellery worn daily]: watch and bracelet
[wallet]: black osiris dual side card holder, which came with da wallet ffu gave to me
[coffee]: i like it sweet
[shoes]: wonderful, if it goes well with my clothes
[cologne/perfume]: burberry weekend
[clothing you have on now]: skin and shorts?
[wishing]: to achieve my goals
[after this]: shower
[talking to]: basically chatting on msn
[eating]: nothing
[fetishes]: taking pics and being taken
[some favorite movies]: LOTR
[something you're looking forward to]: recovery of LSL's illness
[last thing you ate]: spaghetti
[something you’re afraid of]: being back stabbed?
[if you could have any animal as a pet]: a chameleon
[cities you wouldn’t mind moving to]: gold coast, australia
[some favorite foods]: unagi, steak and nasi lemak
[something -or someone- you wish you could understand better]: something-aircrafts, someone-LSL
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time]: Genevieve, 7 year-old daughter of my father's friend

-DO U-
[like candles]: for candlelight dinner and lantern festival
[like company]: hell yeah!
[believe in soul mates]: hopefully i can find da one
[believe in love at first sight]: i do
[believe in forgiveness]: always
[want to get married]: one day
[want to have kids]: how bout 3?
[ever want to adopt kids]: if we are unable.

-IN THE LAST 24 HOURS -
[cried]: did not
[bought something]: bread?
[gotten sick]: nope
[sang]: to me self
[eaten]: i dun go on diet you see
[been kissed]: nope
[felt stupid]: for telling LSL that i went to ang mo kio to pass something to my friend, which i did not. there's a reason behind it.
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: this is difficult
[talked to an ex]: nope
[talked to someone you have a crush on?] met her juz now
[had a serious talk]: about LSL's illness
[missed someone]: before LSL came back from her flight
[hugged someone]: nope
[argued with a parent(s)]: nah
[dreamt about someone you can't be with]: nope

-SOCIAL -
[best girl friend(s)]: cao yuan, jane, eveleen
[best guy friend(s)]: ffu, agm
[hobbies]: movies, bowling, occasional clubbing, relaxing at da beach
[pager/cell]: cell
[are the you the center of attention or a wallflower]: hmmm... sometimes i'm one of those
[car you drive]: no car, drive shit...
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: depends
[job]: student
[attend church]: i'm a free-thinker
[like being around people]: i'm a people person

-PERSONAL-
[who is your role model]: Mr A.S. Gan
[pet peeves]: backstabbers
[ever liked someone you can't be peeves]: nope
[ever liked someone you can't be with]: nope
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone cause they hurt you]: i believe in retribution
[cried over the opposite sex]: skip...
[your favorite physical appearance]: overall, like myself da way i am
[are you happy with yourself]: lotsa rooms for improvement
[what plans do you have for the future]: aspiring pilot
[who do you really hate]: i relly dunno
[who's your most trustworthy family member]: mummy

2004-04-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

i was at shaw house mac with garie and matt, had hot fudge sundae & regular coke, discussed on whether to go up to chinablack. then at around 1am, i went into chinablack. crowd was good. had one glass of gin lime, that's all. pretty weird though. then walked around. went to da dance floor and danced all through till 3am. saw raphael aka michael jackson, spotted wearing a black hat, shades, long sleeve shirt and pants, juz like MJ. well, i would say that there are hell lotsa babes.

lazy saturday, went to skool to print my report that i owed for weeks. finally i'm relieved after i'd submitted it. went home to rest. wanted to go to sunset bay, but aaron slept like a pig, so we forgo that idea. had a short nap, woke up, then watched tv. boring boring. well... that's basically all, a saturday wasted juz like this.

sunset bay on sunday! hey weather, remain this way aight?!

2004-04-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

firstly, to welcome "..." for visiting my blog. ppl muz be wondering who is this "..." right? it doesn't matter. anyway, juz wanna tell him some facts. well, pride isn't my everything, so i dun have to cook up stories to save it. i dun have to take back anything, believe it or not? it's all up to you. ever since young, you had only tried less than half of what i had tried. life is so easy for you. juz becoz i'm da eldest, i need to go through more things? that's what my dad told me. enough said for now.

all are welcome to be here. feel free to comment. i'm lovin it.

2004-04-14T02:38:00.000+08:00

well, i juz wanna say a few things. ppl out there, dun think what you all said will not be known to dat person. talking behind ppl's back is one of da worst thing you can do. and i know, some ppl doesn't like what i do. i do things that i think that is right and do no harm to others, i can't basically please everyone right?

anyway, whenever i feel i dun belong somewhere, i'll leave. being neglected or missed out is a terrible feeling. hopefully others won't suffer this kinda fate.

i love you for sentimental reason

2004-04-14T02:34:00.000+08:00

//Series one - stats
Name: javier sim
Birthdate: 07 Oct 82
Current Location: Singapore
Hair Color: Brown
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Innie or Outtie: More on Outtie

// Series two - describe
The shoes you wore today: I was home da whole day
Your hair: da fringe comes down on da front, da top stands up and da back juz flow with da whole hair
Your eyes: innocent (wahahaha!)
Your weakness: trust people too easily dat i got cheated a few times
Your fears: not having a good future, not getting what i want, losing what i have now
Your perfect pizza: flat with minimal crust, ham, saugages, cheese, capsicum and chilli!

// Series three - what is
Your most overused phrase on MSN/AIM: ...
Your thoughts first waking up: time?
The first feature you notice in the opposite (or same) sex: face, then focus to the eyes while we exchange greetings
Your best physical feature: i am what i am
Your usual bedtime: 3-4am
Your greatest accomplishment: i have yet to have one, and shan't brag on small stuff
Your best memory: da chalet/bbq on my 20th birthday with my ex-gf and ffu

// Series four - do you
Smoke: never
Curse: sometimes
Sing well: haven't got da technique
Take a shower everyday: definitely!
Like high school: i did enjoyed life in high school
Want to get married: to da love of my life
Believe in yourself: it's a must
Get motion sickness: nope
Think you're attractive: yes, it gives you confident
Think you're a health freak: nope
Like thunderstorms: i like da temperature though

// Series five - in the past month, did/have you
Drank alcohol: yeap
Smoked: never
Done a drug: nope
Made Out: not for da past month
Go on a date: yeap
Go to the mall: yesterday
Been on stage: hmmm... nope, but for da past few months, yes
Been dumped: haven't had any relationship for months
Gone skating: never since sec 3
Made homemade cookies: i dunno how to
Been in love: yeap now
Stolen anything: i dun steal

// Series six - have you ever?
Played a game that required removal of clothing: some truth or dare thing
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: can't remember
Been caught "doing something": doing what?
Been called a tease: yeap
Gotten beaten up: yeap, i didn't fight back
Shoplifted: never
If so, did you get caught: Not applicable.
Changed who you were to fit in: what for?

// Series seven - the future
Age you hope to be married: 28, it actually depends on what i've achieved
Numbers and names of children: 3, my love ones
What age do you want to die: i will be very thankful if god allows me to live till 70
What do you want to be when you grow up : a very successful person who has a good balance in everthing!
What country would you most like to visit: italy

// Series eight - currently
Current clothes: polo tees with jeans and shoes
Current mood: smiles
Current taste: meat
Current hair: dragonball
Current Smell: burberry weekend
Current desktop picture: some futuristic design of a city
Current favourite groups: ffu
Current DVD in player: no DVD in it
Current worry: where will i be posted to for ns?

2004-04-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

woke up at around 1530hrs. came online for awhile to change the music for this blog site. then smsed LSL to ask what time her church session ends. LSL called back to tell me that she ends at 7pm, so i met her at suntec, where the church session is being held. really love her sweet smile when i saw her. we walked as we were deciding on what to have for dinner. we made a stop at the ice-cream shop there, LSL ordered a chocolate cone ice-cream and i ordered a raspberry sorbet. she actually hesitated on having ice-cream becoz we have yet to have our dinner, but i encouraged it. for da past 3 dates, except da one to zouk, we had ice-cream. coz LSL likes ice-cream and loves chocolate.

at around 2000hrs, we decided to go to marche for dinner. after we got our table, we walked around the restaurant, having no idea what to eat, or maybe many ideas what to eat that we can't decide. finally, she got half a spring chicken with mashed potato and i got medium rare ribeye steak with baked potato, and both of us drank green tea. we chatted and laughed as we ate. even after da meal, we continued to chat and laugh. from her hair to her church session, to her upcoming flights, then her room, and my future house, and lots more.

LSL explained to me some parts of da show that we caught, the passion of the christ, when jesus was being crucified on da cross, said "i thirst" after he said "father", then da soldier thought he was thirsty, and gave him vinegar to make him feel even thirstier. though he knew it was vinegar, he still took it, to bear da sins of man. he didn't mean he's thirsty, but he meant he desires his father who forsakened him. and da rain was actually god crying. it's nice to know what some parts of da show means, maybe i'll find out more.

have 'faith' and life will be betta. i have faith in you too.

2004-04-11T05:57:00.000+08:00

on thursday, woke up then showered, put on black shirt and black pants, and took those essential stuff to skool. few hours before my fyp presentation, i put on my black coat and rehearsed. half an hour before my actual presentation, i put on da dark red tie as well. looked really smart eh. haha! did received some compliments from my fellow coursemates. presentation went on smooth, then da Q & A. thankfully, we had spotted some questions, and we were well prepared to answer them. phew! oh yah, da panelists complimented on da website! i would like to thank all of you who attended da presentation.

then met our supervisor to thank him for his guidance and time spent with us. took some photos as well. quickly rushed home, coz gotta meet LSL for a movie. showered and changed, then went to cineleisure to meet up. i was slightly late, but she was later. checked on da movie time slot and noticed that they are sold out and filling fast. so we went to lido and bought "the passion" tix. had "long john silvers", and i got a chicken strip for the piece of chicken, wth! haha! the show is a movie of cruelty and bloodiness. not bad.

we went to the mac downstairs and had hot fudge sundaes, an extra cup of coke for me. we had a really nice chat. it's like a getta know each other session. she's so straightforward and funny. i noticed that she is so used to saying knn. i told her and then she juz realised. it's really nice going out with such a nice gal, which i like da way she is.

whole of friday was spent with ffu, as we had ss in da morning till around 5pm, then went home to change and headed down to friends for nasi lemak and liverpool vs arsenal.

actually, i juz came home from zouk. went with some friends, aaron, garie and matt, then met LSL. she's da reason i went. LSL's friend, cindy was with her. my first impression of cindy was that she seems unfriendly. but after chatting up with her, then i realised that she's actually quite nonsensical, friendly and lifely! she has a very good smile, so cindy, smile more often aight! da both of them were with us most of da time. at around 0230hrs, we went to kopitiam selegie for supper, due to some starving animals. that was da time when we had a real chat after da meal. sitting right opposite, i looked into LSL's eyes, then she looked back at me. i really wonder what's in her mind... i was thinking if she's da one for me. should i make a decision now? i think remaining this way is good enough.

about my previous post, i hope it was juz me venting my frustration. please dun take some of the things that i said too seriously. thank you all!

2004-04-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

what had i actually done wrong? maybe i did do something wrong, but what is forgiveness? i dun really understand why... do you always have to give hints, can't you juz tell me those fucking mistakes directly? you're selfish dad, fuck it! a dad like yaself, who can't even tell what state ya own flesh and blood is in now, you can go slap yaself in da face. one day you will regret. fuck every single one of my family! except my real mummy and my step sis. the rest can juz go drown yaself!

sometimes i feel that my life is ruined, those grieved mistakes that i made in da past are juz ruining my future. no one cares, no one understand, they dun even know! i am doomed, doomed! everytime when i thought of ending my life, i see hope. i believe that if there's juz one day when this thought flash across my mind again, and hope is not around, goodbye to those whom i once loved. what i can only leave with you guys are memories.

2 more days to my fyp presentation, and i can relieve a little. hopefully all goes well.

if i can reset my life, i will never repeat those stupid mistakes again. i will never repeat those mistakes. never repeat those mistakes. never!!!

2004-03-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

didn't start my day pretty well today. firstly, i had a tiff with my younger bro, all bout his bike and payment. such an impulsive dude who bought a bike from my friend, even before he got his license or enough money. NO MONEY DUN BUY LAH! he even said my friend sold him a lousy bike, which he had checked a few times. then he blamed me for introducing such friend to sell him this bike, wth, i only told that idiot to see his bike, not buy his bike stupid! i'm like stuck in between, listen to one side of the story, then the other side. both of them i knew quite long already, so they are like pushers of responsibilities. the whole thing even brought up a fight, my childish bro juz grabbed me and threw punches(i didn't hit him back and it didn't hurt at all!) haha, his big frame seems useless, weak. then i told him to grow up, at least i dun beat up my own family members.

my little sis seems to have some problems too, bout going out with friends and my "i'm da king" wimpy bro frightening her by scolding her about him seeing her with a group that consists of guy/s. mix skool dude, what's wrong with that?! it's betta for her now, since i'm her listener. i will take good care of her.

fyp has been handed in, less stress now. 3 more projects to go. what did i do for da past few days? well, sat went to zouk, sun did my fyp, so i didn't go to ss(sian, i miss ss), mon skool for fyp(wtf, group members attitude sia, pushed blames on me juz becoz i am the creator and editor of the website and they wanna see some "perfection"!), then today was supposed to do CED project, but ended up doing fyp most da time, juz becoz they wanna add sound to da flash that i created(their so call perfection as well. Zz...), and we submitted late. my fyp group members carry knives, i have to watch my back all da time! still have presentation ya know!

well, i dun like to talk bad bout ppl, which is not right. so that's enough bout them, and get on with nice stuff!

was at zouk on sat, saw ivan aka liar chong! wth, the person whom we least expected to see! i was so thrilled to see him there. hmmm... wee siang approached a gal that night, then i introduced myself too! "jie4 dao1 sa1 ren2"! she's a nice person though.

nothing much happened today. after skool, went to the interchange, saw siang, then met seng. long john for dinner, then chilled in starbucks. peh came, peow came then yogi. left for supper at simpang bedok as peh drove us there, only seng, siang and me went. i had mutton soup.

oh yeah! there were somethings i discussed with peh bout, cool! wanna know more? check out his blog @ http://imwalkingaway.blogspot.com/

honestly, i can tell you guys that hanging out with FFU is awesome! they make the worst day great!

2004-03-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling stress... a few more days to the submission of fyp! and the website is not so complete and needs much improvement... it juz doesn't feel right... even spent the whole day and night solving some parts of it yesterday.

even when i went to skool, i was trying to improve it in the lab(during 3 hrs CED prac somemore), and my leader is not satisfied with it!!! what do you expect?!?! try doing it and you'll know what's torture! Zz... stayed in skool till 9pm.

i reached my beloved company at around 10pm, met all my bruddas and sistas, had dinner, and chit chat! all commented on my hair... most of them said it's nice!(of coz! LoLx!) i'm so glad to see you all(sis cao yuan, joel, lulu, aaron, huangke, zhirong, garie, steffany, ann, matt and many more!) well, after so long for not being able to go to the company, many ppl still remember me! they're so nice! then i left the place at 12 midnight.

reached the carpark near my home, and noticed that the car isn't around. got home and found out that my stepmum and my younger bro are not at home. instantly, i felt that there's something amiss. then saw blood stain on my bro's helmet bag and a broken motorbike stand. the shower was in a mess with iodine stains on the floor. immediately, i called my stepmum and asked what happened, then she told me that my bro met with an accident at eunos area and not very badly injured. thank goodness, no one else is hurt in that accident.(brudda, pls ride carefully, i can't afford to lose you though we often have conflicts)

gonna continue with my project now! cya ppl!

it is fate that you are part of this family, like it or not, you are still part of this family.

2004-03-21T04:53:00.000+08:00

happy birthday peow!

spent da whole friday on fyp, wtf!

woke up at around 1215hrs on saturday, online, then shower and got prepared for a movie at suntec. in the end, missed the 1410hrs the eye 2! wth! juz becoz of someone being late for like more than 15mins, which took some of the starting part of the show away... well, got seperated with them and took a cab from suntec to meet cai tao peh and xm for billiards at grand link. it has been a long time since i last played billiard. at one game, i lost to cai tao peh by "na ge li qiu"! muahahahaha! gotcha peh! left at around 1800hrs, and went home by xm's car. coz he needs to pick up his dad at the airport. well xm, handover ceremony huh. "so sweet of you huh" LoLx!

at around 2130hrs (suppose to be the meeting at 8 phones), i received a call from xm, so went down to meet him at da bus stop, and took a cab to tampines interchange 8 phones. met up with da rest for the regiment to take bus no. 29 to changi village. on da bus, laksa yogi took out the huge video camera, which he borrowed from skool to show us. we did some stupid actions with it. there was also this mic(now i know which part did the wrestler use as a weapon), and peh took it and did some impersonation of da rock! halfway through the journey, liar chong suddenly appeared on da bus, amazed and amused ffu cheered and made lotsa noise(too long never see you lah chong!). then we started discussing bout ns life, physical trainings and how many pull ups we can do... wow! the wimpy chong can now do 20+ pull ups!

arrived at changi village, went to get some food at the hawker. free half a spring chicken and packet of fries(courtesy of my uncle), and a nasi lemak as well. we ate at friends cafe. while eating, a flock of "vultures" appeared and tore the crispy skin of the spring chicken off. after man u vs spurs match, we went out, as yogi need to film some cabs for his project. we also went rounding, to check out those sexy ba poks!

0100hrs, we took a cab to tampines mall. on da way, the cabby was chatting on the phone over his bet on those soccer matches, a pretty long conversation indead. happily talking bout his own predictions, which left us ponder bout those matches. anyhow only...

yogi carried on with his filming, including interviews with cabbies and passer-bys. having peh as the logistic assistant who carried his bag, and lame 'o' siang as the mic stand(suitable position along with ya figure)! siang kept using the mic to press our chest, which he is actually fantasizing interviewing babes and pressing the mic onto their breast! *shakes head... LoLx!

well, ss at 1400hrs. must sum up with the (GMT +01:00) FFU time! Zz...

2004-03-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened for da past few days, not much of any weird or interesting incidents. few days ago was boon's 18th birthday! happy belated birthday boon! we had dinner near peow's house. ant and i were late, and most of the food ended up in most of FFU's dino's stomach! WTH! i only had a plate of rice, a miserable prawn and fish bones! at least i had one small proper bowl of longans cum rambutan for dessert. we then went to fisherman village to chill out, that's when all the lame 'o' jokes came out. guess i am hooked to siang's hp archery game!

next birthday coming up is peow's! what's for da celebration?! zouk or chinablack?

ANT! STOP THE CC THING PLEASE! Zz...

2004-03-15T01:19:00.000+08:00

sunday, as usual ss(street soccer) started late... good thing bout the day is that xm drove! what a comfortable trip to ss... ffu strength was 17! if i'm no wrong.

caught peh said something like "he1 ice cream" means "drink ice cream"! haha caught you peh! there were some lame jokes too! wee siang, get erected and swim back stroke on a croc infested river huh! LoL!

played until around 8pm, we were quite hungry, but there was no sign of anyone wanting to leave. then singh, xm and i sneaked to the car as we drove to have teppanyaki at cs(century square). bad, bad, bad...

really enjoyed ss today! ss need to wait till next week! haizzz, monday skool blues... Zz...

2004-03-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

on 13 march, saturday, i gotta know this gal through friendster, as she msged me... then chatted on msn... at around half past 5, she called and ask if i would like to accompany her to west coast(never been there), i agreed and met her at bukit batok mrt control station. i instantly recognise her, we then proceeded to get the bus... guess what happened, we boarded the correct bus, but to the wrong direction! LoL! i thought she knows the way! looked at the sky, and i predicted that it'll rain, so we decided on another location... then i suggested ikea, what a good idea!

on our way there, she told me more bout herself, and her one year education at a college in perth. she came back to singapore during the end of last year, might be leaving next year for her degree course. what i think bout her? she's sweet and cute!

i really love furnitures, can imagine how my future home will be like... dinner was at ikea too, had roast beef, meatballs and chicken wings. then made a trip to woodlands as she lives there.

wtf guys, ain't we supposed to be in embassy?! anyway, it was cancelled, doesn't really matter! LoL! went to our frequent cafe at changi village, FRIENDS, to chill... we then drove to KPT at hougang/punggol for supper! on the way there, made 2 u-turns. xm, cefiro long right... haha! peh, sunny also long? right behind us was a red daihatsu, thought to have mocked at peh's driving skill... nah, dun think they dare!

at the KPT, saw this gal who looks alike the LISA in "who's hot an who's not" tv show.

2004-03-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

oh yah! missed out one more good news (dunno if it's good or bad, but it's definitely good for someone), my brother, nicholas had got his class 2b license! well done boy! hope he rides carefully...

that's all bout it! seeya...

2004-03-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

happy birthday mummy! and a happy belated birthday to you singh! although we had a birthday dinner together with ffu that day, i didn't blog... haha!

woo! singh's birthday was like a dinos' gathering at kuishin bo, suntec. our tables were always full of food, ranging from tempuras to kaminabe(not gan ni na be ah). personally, i had 2 sticks of yakitori, 2 sticks of chicken balls, 4 pieces of unagi, 2 pieces of grilled salmon, 2 pieces of saba, a plate of salmon, 8 small octopus, 2 bowls of jellyfish, 1 bowl of mashed potatoes, 5 tempuras, 1 kani kaminabe, 3 cups of drinks and a cup of vanilla ice cream! yeah! we had lotsa fun and took lotsa pics as well! check it out at the "picture" link under [exits].

it's my mummy's birthday today, we had japanese food at bugis junction, then went shopping. while walking around in seiyu, we arrive at this watch counter, she then told my brother and i to choose a watch each. my brother got a g-shock and i got a nike watch. when we were paying at the cashier, i realised something weird, and i asked my brother,"whose birthday is it today? ours or mummy's ?" we looked at each other and laughed! maybe mummy is so happy that she wants us to have something too.

what a wonderful day! LoL! got new watch!

well, need to do my fyp journal. good day people!

2004-03-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened yesterday. didn't attend lesson starting at 8am, becoz i can't get up. so i went to visit the doc and got an MC.

as i was watching tv, i was thinking of the past. when i was 4, mum left the family, what was the reason she left? being too young to even notice, i didn't even ask. my younger brother and i followed my dad. we would wakeup every morning at 5am and follow dad to the coffeeshop at bukit batok to work. that neighbourhood became my childhood memory, friends that i had made and places where i had roamed around. still remember my dad carried my younger brother to a place, and i followed behind, i lost track and ran around the place and cried. the next thing i knew, i was at a police post waiting for my dad to pick me up. while waiting, i was looking into a fish tank, as the police officer fed them with blood worms.

at one period of time, my brother stayed with my grandma in malaysia, and i was sent to live with a baby sitter. the family took very good care of me. it was also my time to attend kindergarden. still remember how my baby sitter looks and her youngest daughter, melissa. she was my childhood playmate. we would go everywhere together. really miss them, i must visit them once i had found out their address.

few years later, there came my stepmum. i was wondering whether her taking good care of us was out of love or an act of sympathy. after so many years, i've never asked myself, until these recent years. and one thing about trust, why do they have to lock the masterbedroom door when they are not around, and my brother and i are around? even when the 2 younger siblings are around without my parents, they don't lock it. even worse, the younger siblings lock the door when parents are not around. my brother and i had never stolen anything. we never bother to ask.

anyway, i think i'll stop here. there are more to come.

2004-03-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

finally, i have had my haircut and coloured after so long... i would like to thank my lovely cousin for it. it was done in my cousin's own hair salon, at my dad's hometown in sungei ringit, malaysia, where my grandma and many of my relatives live.

the food at the seafood restaurant of a group of cousins of mine is superb! (anyone wants to enjoy a sumptous meal of lobsters?) that restaurant name "crystal jade" or in chinese "fei cui yuan" went on channel u, yummy king! even a group of my friend who had been there praised on their fresh seafood and delicious meal, not forgetting the warm services of my relatives.

enough on the food. some singapore cousins went over to visit. they had their meal at the restaurant (that restaurant again...), then i drove them around to pray in some of the many temples there. then drove them to the sea port, as they took the bunk boat home.

came back to singapore by ferry on the same day, then went to meet up with FFU, who were still at "ho peng". and i enjoyed their loads of rubbish and nonsense. yeap, that's almost bout all.

"the temperature like england's"

2004-03-05T11:44:00.001+08:00

here's a head start on blog. i dunno why i'm doing this, but it was after some consideration that i think it's time to pour my thoughts into some space. every single word, every sentences, every thoughts, everyone, every time, everything will be true. believe my sh*t or move on. wanna find out more bout my space, hang on tight...